Childhood lovers

7.

Ugh. I don't feel good today. I wiped my tears away and groaned.

"Why am I so fucking ugly!" I asked myself.

I was looking at myself in my mirror. I hate everything on my face. Everything! I looked down at my body and started crying again. Why can't I have a good body like Cheryl? Why can't I have a face like Veronica?

"I hate you! I hate you so much!" I yelled at myself.

I hate how pale my skin is. I hate how my smile looks. I hate how my hair, I hate it so much I always have it in a damn ponytail because I'm so insecure about it! I just hate myself so much.

My knees fell to the ground and I started crying like crazy. This is why I'm single and no one likes me, everyone has feelings for Cheryl, Toni, Josie, and Veronica. Everyone adores them. Why can't I just be pretty like them? I heard the doorbell ring and I groaned. I wiped my tears and went downstairs. I opened the door and Jughead was on the opposite side.

"Betty, were you crying?" He asked.

"No"

I'm such a bad liar. My eyes are red and watery, my whole face looks like I've been trapped in my room crying all day, which I actually did.

"What happened?" He asked coming inside.

"It's nothing" I said.

I always tell Jughead when I'm feeling insecure. But why do I feel like he won't care what I have to say?

"Betty, something's wrong what is it?"

I either lie or I tell him.

"I don't like the way I am, that's what's wrong"

I sat down on the couch and he sat next to me.

"You're feeling insecure?

I nodded.

"Betty look at me, what don't you like about yourself, in detail tell me"

I sighed, "I hate my body, I hate how chubby I am, I hate the fact that I smile like a clown, I hate my laugh, I hate my eyes, I hate everything, my whole face just disgusts me" I started tearing up.

Jughead held my hand and made me look at him.

"Betty, you're not ugly and you're not fat or chubby, you're body is fine just the way it is, I could have a really bad day and just hearing you're laugh and seeing your smile would make it better, you're eyes, they're breathtaking, and you're face, it doesn't disgust me, don't feel insecure or say that you hate yourself okay?"

A tear rolled down my face and I hugged Jughead. I started crying in his arms like crazy. I didn't let go and I didn't stop crying. What Jughead just told me made my heart flutter, i hugged him tighter and hugged back. I feel safe, right here in his arms.

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After a while Jughead left and I went back up to my room. I closed the door and took out my diary.

Dear diary,

What's this sensation? I keep thinking about Jughead and his words that bring me comfort. At this moment I'm thinking about being in his arms and just staying there. He made me feel better today, I mean he always makes me feel better when I'm sad. He's always there for me. I turning red as I'm writing this down. He's stuck on my mind. His green eyes that can make anyone feel weak, his smile that just warms me up, his voice, oh god his voice it's....wow, his personality is just so amazing I can't even describe him. Everything about him is just so........

I stopped writing and looked at myself in the mirror. Oh my god. Am I? Is this really happening? Could it actually be that....

I whispered "I'm catching feelings for Jughead?"

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Heyyyyy, so I was feeling really insecure yesterday (I'm really ugly) and I was like crying my eyes out and that's what inspired this chapter the only difference is Betty had someone to make her feel better and.................. I don't ✌🏼😔. But yeah..:/