the driver era spanking one shorts ( ENG)

it's okay to be sad

A/N made this story because it's day of mentally healthy day, I know a lot of people struggling whit depression, anxiety and a lot of other problems. But you never alone, you have always someone we can help, like a parent, sibling  teacher, friend, a relative even a pet. Sometimes a shoulder is the only thing you need.

( Ross pov )

I look in the mirror and a tear running down my face. Why say everyone that I'm handsome? It's not true. I see only an ugly untalented boy.  I don't even know what I'm doing here? Than I start crying. " Ross? You okay?" Ask rocky.  " y- yhea I'm fine." I say softly. " you sure? Do wanna talk about it?" "  no! I'm fine! Just.. leave me alone!" I shout. " okay.. if you wanna talk, I'm here." Says rocky and leave the room. I sigh and cry again. I can't talk whit him he wouldn't understand nobody doesn't, nobody knows how I'm feeling right now and nobody can't help. I have this feelings over the last 2 years and Everyone thinks I have the perfect life and everything thinks I'm happy.  But that's a lie I'm not happy at all and I wand it to stop. I don't wanna feel this! I hate myself and I don't deserved this life and I don't deserved it to life. There's one thing I can do to stop it.

( rocky's pov)

I'm really worried about Ross, he's always in his room, he don't wanna eat or something. I don't know what to do. I gonna talk whit riker. I grab my phone and call him. " hey what's up? It's Ross..  he acting really weird lately. What do you mean? Well.. I think something border him. Talk to him. I try but he don't wanna talk he sit always in his room, I don't know what to do. Okay.. I talk whit dad and we see what we can do. Okay thanks bro. Always" I really hope they can help, I don't wanna lose him." Ross can you come here for a second?" I call. " no! I don't wanna." He calls back. " I just wanna talk come I  bro." He stomp into my room and looked very annoyed. " what do you wand?" He snap. " I just wanna talk.. what's wrong? Is something  border you?" I ask. " no! Why are you keep asking?!" " I'm worried about you, Ross please tell me.. I wanna help you." I beg. " just leave me alone! I'm perfectly happy! And I don't need you!" He yells. " okay.. if this is what you wand.." I sigh. " yes.. i wand this." He say and he leave my room.

( Ross pov )

I start crying again I hate this! My mind is killing me. I need to leave right now before rocky kicks me out. I write a note and climb out my window.

( rocky's pov )

I gonna talk to him if he wants or not, and I don't leave his room till he talks.  " Ross we..." he gone! I see a note and strat reading.

* I'm really sorry  rocky, I love you *

Okay this is not good! I grab my jacket and run outside.  I need to find him! Why didn't he tell me this? I call everyone to find him.

* later *

We still didn't find him. I'm really scared what if I lose him" what if I'm  never see him again. I run to the park and crying. Than it start raining really hard, but I don't care I wanna find Ross. Than I get a message from mom.

* honey come home please, your dad's  gonna calls the cops.*

I sight. No I'm not going to home, I just wanna be alone for a while. Than I see someone sitting on a bench. Wait..  " Ross!" I called and run to him.  " I'm so happy you okay" I cried.  " rocky.. leave me alone please.."  he cries. " no, no I'm not leaving you! I'm gonna stay whit you. I'm not leaving." I say. " please! I wanna be alone." He say and crying again. " rossy.. what's wrong? I wanna help you.. please tell me what's wrong? Something border you and I wanna know what." I say and stroke his wet hair. " i-i don't know.. i don't know rocky." He cry " ssht everything gonna be okay." I whisper. I'm not gonna tell him he's fine because he's not. " I really not happy rocky." He snobs.  " that's okay, sometimes people are sad, it's totally fine." I say. " but I hate it, I don't wanna feel that way. I wanna be happy and laughing, not crying and sad." He sigh. " I know buddy, I know." I say and hugs him. Than he cry's harder. " it's okay, it's okay." I whisper and rubbing his back. " come on, let's go home mom and dad are waiting. " " they know?" " yes i called then when I saw you're note." I say and pick him up.  than it start thundering  and Ross screaming. " ssh it's okay baby, I'm here." I cooed 

When we're home mom give us a towel and hot chocolate milk. " you okay Ross?" Ask dad. " y.. no.. I'm not okay dad." Says Ross softly. " wanna talk?" " I don't know? How?" He ask. " well.. just talking how about you feeling right now." Says riker. " I don't know how to feel..  I'm just really sad lately and I don't know what to do." Than he cry's again. " aw Ross, it's okay to feel that. You don't need to be fine al the time, it's okay to be sad sometimes." Says mom and kiss his head. " why? I mean... everyone thinks we are perfect and.." " That's true but it isn't, you are a human and is okay to be sad but.. you need to talk about it so we can help." Says dad. He nobs and wipes his tear away. " come on rossy, let's go home." I say and pick him up. 

When we home I take him to the badroom and undress him. " do you wanna a bath and relax for a moment?" I ask. He nobs. I smlie and make him a warm bath.  " you wanna be alone?" I ask.  " actually.. no I don't wanna be alone anymore." He sigh. I nob and he gets in the tub. " feels good?" I ask. " yhea.." he say and close his eyes. I smilie and start washing him. After his bath I dress him in his favorite pyjama. " come on.. let's watch a movie." I say and take him downstairs. " can we just cuddling?" " if you want." I smilie and kiss his head. He laying on my lap and crying again. " aw rossy" I say and stroke his hair. " it's so hard." He cries. " Ross? How long struggling you whit this?" I aks. " 2 years.. I thought it gets better.. but it gets worse and worse!" " Ross why aren't you telling me this? I could help you." I say. " I thought you be mad at me." He say softly " why would I be mad? You're my little brother. Listen..  from now on.. we have every week a talk and you gonna tell me how you feel and if something border you, okay?" He nobs and cuddles me. " I love you rocky..  and thanks for be whit me." He smilie softly but the tears still running down his face. I smlie and hugs him. " I'm always be there for you." Than you close his eyes. I grab my phone and make a picture of me and Ross and place it an Instagram whit.

* cuddling whit my little brother who has a hard time right now. you strong Ross. 💛 *

Later that night I bring Ross who's already sleep upstairs to my room. I let him sleep whit me in case he needs me or somting. " good night rossy, I love you." I say and kiss his head. I change myself and lay next to Ross. I checked my phone for the last time and see a bunch of comments from my last photo. Everyone is so supportive for Ross. I smile and kiss his head again. " see rossy? You never be alone." I whisper