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Chapter 9 *

I'm drowning and I get get out. Everything thing physically hurts. I am stuck with no where to go. I feel someone touch my arm gently. I panic more. I keep going deeper and deeper. I hear a voice telling me to take a deep breath. I try but it comes out as a gasp. The voice keeps repeating to take a deep breath with them. It takes me three times before it doesnt come out as a gasp. The voice is getting more clear. But the image of Sirius and James laughing is getting stronger. The voice keeps telling me to breath with them. Eventually I can breathe again but I still see the image. Slowly the image disappears and the compartment comes back. I'm on the floor and Sirius is sitting in front of me with a look of concern on his face.

"Can you hear me Reg?" he asks quietly.

All I do is nod.

"Good keep taking deep breaths."

I don't know why but I suddenly start crying. I hate crying because it's a sign of weakness. "I-I-Im so sorry," I gasp through tears.

"Hey look at me. You have nothing to be sorry about ok? You had panic attack that's not your fault-", he starts.

"No! Not that! I mean about this s-summer. I treated you horribly. I hurt you so many times. Yet when James saw me and he whispered something to you I lost it..." I explain.

Sirius looks at me his mouth hanging open. Then a smile forms on his face. Then he chuckles, "First off, I don't think he saw you. Second, he was telling me something about Elspeth. He told me about how she's helping him get together with Lily. Third, I don't care what you did this summer to me. I understand," I open my mouth to say something but he interupts,"Before you say I don't understand, I do. I think you forget sometimes you aren't the only child in that family."

"Who's Elspeth?" I ask as that's all I can say.

"She's... well... she is my Girlfriend." He blushes.

I stare at him. He has real friends. I got upset over nothing, I'm weak. "That's... Good for you."

His face falters a little bit but he holds his smile. He nods, "Do you need anything else?... Or?"

I shake my head and look at my feet. I see him stand up but he doesn't leave. I look up to see him holding his hand out to help me up. I stare at it for a second, then look away. I get up by myself and walk past him out of the compartment. I hear him call after me but I don't look back. I walk down the corridor and I find Avery, Mulciber, and Severus sitting together in one. Bellatrix told me all about Avery and Mulciber. I open the door and walk in. They stop talking to see who had barged into their conversation, but once they saw me they all smiled and invited me to sit.

"As I was saying, the Dark Lord is getting stronger. He told my Dad personally." bragged Avery.

Mulciber smirked, "Yeah, right. Your family means near to nothing to him. Your Daddy probably heard it from Lucius."

"Haha, we might not be on the top now but once I join up in a few years, we will be his most loyal family." Avery grumbled.

Severus rolled his eyes, "A few years? What about you, Regulus? You planning on joining?"

I didn't say anything for a second. But I realized that, yes I was going to join. "Yes, I am actually. I was hoping to join in two or three years but considering none of my immediate family is in his circle, I won't be able to join as easily as you."

"I don't know if he'll actually allow you to join up but for your sake I hope he does." said Avery.

"My sake? What's that got to do with anything?" I asked.

They looked at me like I was stupid, "Um? You mean other than your brother being what he is?"

Now that they said it it understand exactly what they meant. That the Dark Lord knows what Sirius is considered to our family, including that my parents aren't technically Death Eaters. I have zero to no chance to joining him.

"Oh," I laughed, "I thought you were talking about me not him. I'm not worried about him."

They seemed to like this answer and went back to talking about how amazing the Dark Lord is.

"But in all honesty have you all heard the prophecy made by that lady?", said Avery. We all turned and looked at him, confused.

"Really? The one about how the Dark Lord would be defeated by a boy born in July? Are you serious?" he gapped at us.

We all shook outperform heads, "No, I don't think he will fall.  Especially at  the hands of a kid.," pronounced after a few moments.

"I agree. Does it say who this child is?" I asked.

"No. The prophecy doesn't even say when this takes place. For all we know it could be decades from now." Avery said looking out the window.

Severus stands up. "We're almost at Hogwarts. Let's go."

They all stand up and leave to compartment. Severus turns around and says, "Good Luck with the sorting. I hope for your sake and ours you are in Syltherin."

I nod, "I hope so to. But I wouldn't want it any other way."

He smiles and walks out closing the door after him. I sit there staring out the window till I see Hogsmede. Only then do I stand up. I put on my school robes and leave the compartment to get off. I push through the corridors and push people aside. They turn to scold me but once they see who I am they back off. The one good thing about my family. I walk off the train to see a huge man stands there with an equally huge smile on his face. 

"First years! First years this way! Follow me!" He started yelling.

All the first years turn and stare at him. And another first year is shoved up against me.

"Oh! I'm very sorry! People aren't the nicest right now." she said.

I look at her, "It's alright."

"I'm Gracelyn. And you are?"

"Regulus," I say, "Regulus Black."

"I see and how are you Regulus Black?" She smiled widely.

"As good as I'll ever be." I smiled back. 

She was pretty. Curly blonde hair with tints of red. Her eyes, they were blue but you could be grey too. She was small, much shorter than me.

"What house do you hope to be in?" She asked sounding nervous.

"Slytherin definitely." I say without hesitation.

"Ah, I've read about that house very... cunning. I'm not sure where I'll be put, considering I'm new to all this." She laughed like it was no deal.

My face turned to disgust as I realized what she is. She's a mud-blood. I move away from her and try to keep walking. But she grabs my wrist.

"I know who your family is Regulus Black. Your family believes in blood purity. I also know you brother isn't exactly your family's idea of a perfect son. But newsflash, that's not all it's about. I-it's about who you are as a person not what you are. I understand you have a reputation to uphold but we all do in our own ways." She said, never looked away.

I look at her, "But you're a mud-blood!"

"Maybe I am. So what?" She looked at me. She tone was sharp but her face was calm.

"I can't be involved with mud-bloods." I say pulling my wrist away.

I walk away quickly. I hear her call out behind me, "I'm always here if you need to talk."