It's my first valentines day in 2 years that I'm alone. It's the first time in 2 years that I'm not celebrating the holiday.
I'm coming to realize that it was never the day that was special to me it was you, the person I was sspending it with.
You're probably doing something with the new girl who you really only started talking to 2 weeks ago, and you know that's okay. Or maybe you aren't, but it's not my business to know. I just know you're going to think of me.
It's my first valentines day in 2 years without you. A snapchat memory from last year came up and it made me sad. The stuffed animal you got me for last years I still have and still sleep with, you know that. But I'm doing my best to not think about it.
Yes, it's sad and I'm sad over it. But I'm okay and I'm even surprised over that. I've been thinking about you today and I've been thinking about our memories from the 2 other valentines days that we spent together and as much as it stings, I can't help but smile. Because it happened and it was amazing. And as much as I want to be the one with you today, I'm not. And that's something I'm learning to be okay with. Because if it's supposed to be me then you'll think of me today even if it's just for a moment and it's over. You'll think of me.
My first valentines day in 2 years without you and even though it saddens me, I'm doing okay.
I will be okay.
