I honestly have no idea why I keep getting upset over you or why what you do still affects me as much. I'm pretty sure I saw you the other day at the ice cream place. It was weird because I happened to be driving by and a thought of you popped into my mind right before I saw you. Of course you were on my mind the rest of the day. Later though I had found out you deleted the rest of our pictures and the ones of just me off your instagram finally. I've been way more affected by it than I thought I would be.
I haven't deleted much of you from my phone or my socials, but I guess that's just something I'm not ready for. You deleted our pictures a few months after we broke up a whole year ago, but you kept those ones. I would understand I guess why you finally deleted the 2, because it expressed how I was your favorite person and I realize I am no longer that. What gets me though is you went as far as to delete the ones from 2016, the ones that were just of me with no caption. Why does that bother me? Because you have a picture with your other friend from years ago, but you couldn't even keep one of just me? It couldn't have signified our friendship? Although those pictures from 2016 had no caption there was a meaning behind them that only we knew, maybe that's why you deleted them. How I see it is, that was you deleting me from your page and from your life. Why do I think that? Because like I said, I'm just your friend now and I've been just your friend for about the past 6 months so why couldn't it have just been an old picture of a friend? Maybe there's too much history and you just didn't want it anymore, but the thing is we've been broken up for a whole ass year and you deleted our other pictures a whole ass year ago, but now after our recent falling out or fizzle out however you want to identify it, you finally delete all of me. I feel like another reason why it bothers me so much and hurts is because as I see you move on and make all those big leaps in the process of it, I'm reminded of how I'm not.
I miss you as a person in my life, but if this is what you feel is best for you then okay. I hope you get everything you pray for and I hope you're making yourself happy. I'm sorry that in the past I couldn't be the girlfriend you needed and I'm sorry that recently I couldn't be the friend you needed even though I tried hard to be. I have a lot to work out with myself too and who knows maybe when we're older we will meet up again and realize how stupid we were, but until then this is just how it is.
