In December of 2019 we started talking again and by January of 2020 we seemed to have a good foot in whatever we were doing.
February rolled around and it was like it never happened and once again you were gone. March and April came with the "I'm moved on" text then it was gone.
At the end of April you reached out and we began to fix our friendship. May came around and that's all we were. We talked every day and we had a few moments, but that was all.
June came too fast and I found out you had the heart from my contact removed. That was the first indication that you really are moving on and I would be lying if I said it didn't hurt a little. We said we're working on our friendship, but whatever God has planned is what He has planned and we're open to anything. We started hanging out and by the middle of June we got too close and you wanted to start treating me like your other friends. It started with responding less quicker and that faded to not talking every day anymore. That turned to not looking at my social media posts anymore. And by the end of June you too were gone. I made a few mistakes, but I'm not really sure what made you cut ties completely this time.
July went by slow and honestly I was having a hard time, which you knew before you decided to stop talking to me again. I was having a hard time with myself in general and I ended up feeling alone. Towards the end of July I reached out, but anyone can guess how that went. It didn't go anywhere cause you didn't even look at the message.
Now it's August and nothings changed.
I took distance from you because it's what you wanted and I respected it even though I didn't agree, you knew that though.
To be honest I have no idea why I'm missing you so much or why I'm still thinking about you, but I do and I am.
It shouldn't hurt me anymore, but it does and maybe that's cause with or without a romantic relationship you will always mean a lot to me.
I thought by now the love I had would fade, but I don't know what to do with it cause it's not leaving...
I just wish you the best even if that's without me...
