Treatment (BxB) Completed

Four

Chapter 4

Yvan

"Dude I can't believe you."

Hindi makapaniwalang natawa si Shyn sa akin habang nakasandal ako sa gilid ng pinto at siya ay nasa loob ng kwarto nakatingin sa lalaking nakahiga sa kama.

"Sir, he's still unconscious but he'll wake up sooner," ani Adeline sa akin. I nodded at her before she excused herself. Nang makalabas si Adeline ay napatingin ako sa doctor ko.

"Will he really be okay?," I asked Shyn. This is my first time to worry about a man's well-being. I can't help it, I'm at fault. He's my doctor, I shouldn't done him any harm because he's the one who'll help me.

"Yvan, you just punched your doctor and knocked him down! Siraulo ka ba?!," Shyn said out loud. I rolled my eyes at her and inserted my two hands on my pockets.

"Nagulat ako. My body automatically reacted when he's about to touch me," paliwanag ko.

"Touch you?"

"He's...about to check me with the...stethoscope—

"What the fuck?!," Shyn exclaimed. I immediately shushed her because of her loud voice that might wake the doctor up.

"Lower you voice," paalala ko sa kanya.

"He's a doctor of course he'll do that. He meant no harm so why punch him?," tanong ni Shyn. Bakas sa boses niya ang hindi pagsang-ayon sa ginawa ko. Alam niya ang kalagayan ko ngunit hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon ay iniintindi niya ako. Especially when I react violently towards a man that has no intention to harm me.

I sighed at her as a surrender. I know it's my fault and I am guilty of that. Hindi ko lang napigilan ang sarili ko. Damn, phobia fucking burden!

"Try hard not to hurt him again, okay?," Shyn said when she walked near me. She tapped my shoulders. "You can do it," sabi nito sa akin.

"Yeah, hope so," sagot ko lang.

"Bantayan mo muna hanggang sa magising siya tapos humingi ka ng tawad. Kailangan ko ng umalis at may aasikasuhin pa ako sa kompanya mo," habilin ni Shyn sa akin bago siya nagpaalam at tuluyan ng umalis.

I stayed at my position before I got the courage to walk inside the room. Again, this is my first time to stay inside a room with a man and just two of us. Hindi ako nakaramdam ng kaba dahil tulog ito at alam kong wala itong gagawin sa akin. Sumandal ako sa maliit na cabinet sa gilid ng kama niya, pinapanatili ang distansya sa kanya. I stared at him for long and I realized that it doesn't creeps me out. Hindi nagsitayuan ang balahibo ko habang nakatitig sa natutulog nitong pigura.

Siguro dahil tulog ito at walang kalaban-laban.

I looked at his sleeping face again. This doctor got the looks. Kung hindi ito doctor ay pasado na itong maging modelo o artista. His pointed nose, thin lips, long eyelashes and thick eyebrows. Idagdag pa ang pormado niyang panga—what the heck?

Why am I describing him? Biglang pumasok sa isipan ko ang nangyari sa loob ng kotse. I was shocked a while ago when I saw him. Hindi ko inakala na siya ang magiging doctor ko. After what he did inside the car that made me sleepless for nights, I wasn't expecting to see him again. Hindi ito mukhang doctor sa oras na iyon.

The conversation a while ago with him was exhausting. Alam ko na nahihirapan din ito kahit ako man ay nahihirapan. Pilit akong kumakalma at maayos na sumasagot sa mga tanong niya. I keep on repeating to myself that he won't harm me since he's distance away from me. That's why when he went near me and almost touch me, I reacted violently and punched him hard that made him knocked out. I really hate myself but I know he's right. I need to cooperate and I will fucking try harder to do that.