Treatment (BxB) Completed

Eight

Chapter 8

Jao

Tahimik akong nagbabasa ng files ng mga pasyente ko sa loob ng aking opisina. Ito lang ang ginawa ko at ang pagdalaw sa mga pasyente ko dito sa hospital para maabala ang sarili. Mamayang ala-una ay may therapy session ako kay Yvan ngunit may balak akong hindi muna pumunta sa dahilang hindi ko malaman.

Nang matapos sa binabasa ay napasandal ako sa upuan ko at hinilot ang sintido habang nakapikit ang mga mata. I am stressing myself to an unknown reason. I'll cancel my appointment to my patient just because I am...pissed.

This is bullshit.

I am pissed of the thought that Yvan is close to that Shyn girl more than me. Hindi ako dapat nakakaramdam ng ganito dahil Doctor niya lang ako—damn but I'm also his friend. I am scolding myself for acting like this because I've never been jealous towards my friends' other friends.

Wait.

Jealous?

Did I just fucking said jealous?!

Tangina, hindi ko na alam ang nangyayari sa akin. I really need not to see him until I sort this feeling out. I might snap in front of him and I don't want that to happen.

I grabbed my phone at the side and sent Yvan a text message telling him that I'm not going.

[ Hey. I can't go right now, something important came up.]

This is kinda rude as a Doctor to cancel appointments to his patients but I can't help it. I need to sort this strange feeling inside me.

Ilang minuto lang ang lumipas at 'okay' lang ang natanggap kong reply sa kanya. I sighed looking at his reply. He didn't even said sorry to me. Talagang nadismaya ako sa sinabi niya sa akin noong magluluto sana ako para sa kanya. Ngunit tama naman siya. Right. He's right by what he said so why am I affected so much?! I shook my head to put aside my thoughts.

Buong araw ay wala akong ginawa kung hindi abalahin ang sarili sa aking opisina. Inasikaso ko na ang aking mga nakatambak na gawain. I even accepted check-ups to make myself busy. In the end, I went home exhausted. Nadatnan ko si Hydra na nagluluto sa kusina ng condo ko. I almost forgot that she's still staying on my place. I didn't mind at all.

"I'll just take a shower and we can eat," I said to her as she's preparing the food.

"Sure," she said smiling at me. Tumango lang ako sa kanya at dumiretso na sa banyo ng kwarto ko. I washed myself and let the cold water take all the exhaustion on my body. Hindi ako gaanong nagtagal sa banyo dahil baka tapos ng magluto si Hydra.

I wore a black shorts and white sweatshirt. Pinapatuyo ko ang aking buhok gamit ang tuwalya nang mapahinto dahil sa pagtunog ng phone ko. Isinukbit ko ang tuwalya sa aking leeg at inabot ang phone. I looked at caller I.D and was shocked to see an unexpected person calling me.

I immediately answered the call and placed the phone on my ear.

"Hello?," bati ko sa kabilang linya.

"Hey," bati niya pabalik. Kinagat ko ang pang-ibabang labi nang mapansin ang panginginig sa boses niya.

"Napatawag ka? May problema ba?," tanong ko kay Yvan. Sandali itong natahimik na ikanakunot ng noo ko. "Yvan—

"I'm sorry," he stopped me. Nagtaka naman ako kung bakit ito humihingi ng patawad sa akin.

"For what?"

"About what I said last time. I just thought that you're probably mad at me—or not. I'm just doing this to get away from the guilt that I'm feeling. It's bothering me  for days now," paliwanag nito. I pursed my lips and forced myself not to smile but I just can't help it.