Adopted by fools (swayla)

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So i didn't care, i did anything. Whatever came to mind. i did it, not caring at all."

"Now my turn to ask you a question." I pause and think about it.  "What is something that inspires you, like keeps you going." i blow out some smoke from my mouth. Jaden pauses and i hear the song change. "God." he says sighing. I sit up and look at him, "You would never strike me as a religious kinda person." i say kinda laughing. "My parents are Christians so i grew up in a Christian home. Other than God,  music has also kept me going." I smile. "Cute, Personally not as religious. If you where Muslim or Christian or Jewish at the orphanage they let your practice your faith or go to Church or go to a Synagogue. They would have workers who would share the same religious beliefs as you so you didn't feel alone." he awes at that. "But i wasn't one of those religious kids. i did stupid shit with Dasiy till she eventually got adopted, she was my best friend." i smile remembering how dumb she was. "My turn" i hear Jaden say "If you wanted to live your life to the fullest. Why haven't you ever had a boyfriend?"  Jaden says as i put my head back on his shoulder. "I don't know. I mean, most of them sucked. I was going for Sean but he got a girlfriend because i never got back to him to reschedule my date with him. And Jay just wasn't it. So i guess i just havent found the right guy." I shrug. "Why haven't you had a girlfriend." i say turning his own question on him. "Got my heartbroken, havent really found anyone since that is right for me." He asks me another question. "Why do you shut everything out."
       Damn, didn't have to hit me that hard.
"I guess." i didn't really know how to answer. "Everyone comes and goes, every parent, every friend. They are there but they leave. So why make a connection and get attached if they are going to end up leaving? Its like a habit at this point. I guess your the only person i tell these things too. Most people would ask me why wouldn't i tell my parents. But some things you just don't say to parents, they just don't understand. Griffin, he is young and i get he might be the cool dad and will get things but as a parent he will want to protect me and will want whats best. So its easier to not tell him the bad things and let him thing everything is okay so that he doesn't... go to bed thinking he is a bad parent." Jaden sits there and thinks on it. "Communication, is the only thing to make your relationship better. Now yes people come and go but some people stay forever you have to trust that. Griffin will want whats best but if he dosent know what is wrong he wont know how to improve as a parent." I guess he is right. "Now like your friend Dasiy said, you have limited time. So if you shut everything out, how will you ever learn?"
         He was right, but shutting things out is easier than expressing everything.
"Jaden." I get up and look at him. "Yes?" he says staring back at me. Thats when i move my head and press my lips on his.

a/n so crazy how she has 133k reads. wtf thats a lot of people, i hope you guys have a good day and don't die.