There's so many positive 4 letter words:
Love
Like
Hope
Care
Life
Then there's negative:
Hate
Evil
Dead
For once in her life Desdemona wanted to hear negative. The word in itself: Negative. Instead she heard positive. Her whole world came tumbling d...
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Standing in the walk-in closet of my New Jersey home, I pull the final strap of the bright red dress onto my shoulder. I look at myself in the mirror smoothing my hands over my slicked back hair. The color of the dress and outfit as a whole is non-traditional for what I'm about to do. Then again there's nothing traditional about what's about to happen anyway.
Not only is today Valentine's Day, but Draco and I are going ahead with getting married. It's probably the last time we'll be able to control something in our lives for awhile. We got out marriage license a few days ago now we're going to do it.
A few weeks ago I turned 34 and this is all hitting me. I met Draco a year and a half ago yet he completely flipped my perfect on the outside world upside down. When I met him, my career was amazing, but I was was so unhappy with my dating life.
Meanwhile, he was unhappy about his career and wanted something different for himself. Draco was so young, but I could tell he wanted to do great things. I initially judged him then I eventually saw past it all.
There's so many factors that made me want to stay far away from Draco, but I couldn't. There are still things that make me apprehensive on taking this serious step with him. He's 24 now and I'm ten years older than him. He could potentially be going to prison for a long time. Am I wasting the 'good' years' I do have left? I just hope I'm not making a mistake...
To others they probably think I'm doing this out of desperation because I think no one else will want me or a last stitch effort at getting married. Some might even think I'm taking advantage of this young man who has no parents and is full of trauma. I know it looks crazy to others. It would look crazy to me.
Nobody has accepted and loved me the way he has. I did the same for him. We both learned a lot from one another. It is what it is. It's not really for other people to understand.
After putting on my heels I stuff my clutch with everything I need then make my way downstairs. At the bottom, Draco already awaits me. An involuntary smile spreads across my face seeing he actually got dressed up.
