Alexandra's pov
Damon and I are standing outside of the party right now and I'm pacing back and forth extremely frustrated and confused. "You compelled me?!" I said.
"Yes" He said.
"When?! When was this?" I said.
"Almost a year and a half ago" He said.
"Are you kidding me?! This whole time, Damon! I couldn't figure out why I couldn't remember anything that had to do with you or even my past and it's because you compelled me to forget!" I said.
"You're really mad right now" He said.
"You made me forget meeting you. Or anything that had to do with you. That's not even fair. Who gave you the right?!" I said.
"No one did, and no one needed to. I made the decision myself" He said.
"Did you even warn me?" I said.
"No..." He said.
"Why did you want me to forget you, Damon? Huh? What the hell did you do?" I said.
"It's not about what I did...it's about what I am" He said walking up to me.
"A vampire? You made me forgot you just because you're a vampire and you didn't want me to know?" I said.
"I was protecting you, dammit! Trying to give you a better life without me!" He said.
"Well, what the hell was going on between us back then that made you feel like you had to do all of that?!" I said and he just got quiet. "Damon?" I said.
"I was in love with you...and you were in love with me" He said and I just stared at him. There's no way...how...how is that even possible?
"And you knew this whole time?" I said.
"I made myself forget too. I didn't remember until Stefan showed me that picture of you. Then it all came back to me" He said.
"That still was a long time ago, Damon!" I said.
"I don't know what you want me to say, Alexandra!" He said.
"I want my memories back!" I said and I could see him getting pissed off and he marched up to me grabbing my shoulders.
"You want your memories back?! If I bring them back, you'll feel everything you felt in that moment. You'll feel all the hurt I put you through." He said.
"I'll feel love for you, won't I?" I said.
"You can't love me, Alexandra." He said.
"Because you think you'll hurt me again?" I said.
"This is my life. I'm a vampire. And sometimes I don't give a damn about anything and I go out and I kill. Or I do stupid things that get me into trouble. Just like you said...sometimes I'm just cold hearted. And it doesn't matter that my emotions for you are back. I still have my issues, Alexandra. Those won't change" He said in my face and I just stare at him.
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