Not So Nice // (Rewrite)

41 | forgetting again

it's nice to have a friend by taylor swift

Flashback 6

CW: mentions of sex, underage smoking, underage drug use 

Sage:

I forget, I always forget. Mum doesn't care about smoking inside. He was too dense to see through my lie. She even grows some in the back. No, I said that because I didn't want him to leave me. I didn't want to go another night with my thoughts and a joint, I thought he enjoyed it, well that is until he stormed off without a goodbye.

But here I am, all by my lonesome, smoking, with my thoughts.

I'm a liar too, sure I've fooled around with a few of his exes, but that was after he had dated them, not during, I wouldn't do that. I don't know why I did it in the first place, much less told him a partial truth about it. I'm trying to convince him that I just wanted to hurt him, just wanted to make him feel some sort of pain. But, the jealousy that stirred in his eyes for less than a second was much more than I thought I would ever receive.

Not that I wanted it, not at all. It was just nice for a second. I'm just lonely, I tell myself, I just want someone to want me. I tell myself again, but even through my hazy brain I know it isn't true.

"Sage" I hear someone bellow from below the treehouse. I straighten myself out, wipe the smeared mascara from my eyes and stow away the journal I've been writing in the little floorboard of hidden things.

"Up here," I say while Charlotte begins climbing up the ladder. She plops herself next to me on the rounded pillow wrapping her arms around me and kissing the top of my head. She's normally affectionate but not this much and once she speaks I immediately know why.

"You okay?" I sigh and nuzzle into her grasp.

"You heard?" I ask although I already know the answer.

"You know how loud Draco is and you know how loud you get when you upset and-" I cut her off.

"So you heard?" She nods and adds

"And anyone else that was in the house," Fantastic. "but if it makes you feel better I could only make out bits and pieces, what was that about anyway, it was so hard to tell." A sigh of relief leaves my mouth as I finally look her in her eyes.

"I'm not even sure, you just know how we get." She nods and looks away for a long moment. My joint instinctively goes back up to my mouth and she turns back to me taking the joint out of her mouth and putting it in hers, a lopsided smile peaks out of her mouth as I give her a dirty look.

"Let's do something fun!"

"Just what I needed." It's true, she always knows just what I need whether it's to talk or just sit together, or to hold each other and smoke, or my very favorite which of course she knows, have fun, or more accurately cause trouble.

She jumps down the ladder taking two at a time and I follow close behind, the sun will be going down soon but that doesn't matter. All the more shadows to hide in. She takes my hand and we begin running and soon enough I know where we are. A large clearing right in the middle of the woods. We have bonfires here all the time and the logs formed in a circle show it. But to my surprise she keeps running, until we are back at Luna's, we are both giggling hysterically and she looks at me with a toothy grin bringing her finger up to her lips and making a shushing noise in between her giggles.

"Shhh," she says and I give her a questioning look but still, I close my mouth and suppress my laughter. She starts to crawl around the bottom of Luna's house. She pulls her backpack to her front and opens the zippers pulling out something. I can't quite tell what it is so I pull out the abandoned lighter from earlier, and now I'm thinking of him.

That fucking bastard. And he called Luna what everyone thinks she is, which she isn't, she's just like the rest of us and shouldn't be treated any differently. Fuck him, I'll show him, I'll get him back.

I finally light the lighter to see what she has gotten, since twilight is almost over, and I can barely see. Whiz-bangs. My brothers made these this year, and they haven't even started selling them. I can feel a bright smile play on my lips as she brings them out.

We sneak off to the back where there are multiple hidden keys. I find one, only with my hands because of the darkness. I unlock the basement door and we begin to sneak our way into her house. Her father is gone on another one of his adventures which doesn't change much about how we act around here.

"Let's get real close and light one right near her!" I say and she smiles at me

"She'll be so scared." I nod and we head up to her room.

We make our way up to her and light them off, one at a time. Closer first and then farther and farther away from her. We hear one yelp and then another and then

"Sage, Merlin's Beard is that you again?" We run off not being able to contain our giggles any longer. Something wraps itself around my leg and I fall right onto my arse. "Gotcha." Charlotte begins laughing at me and I say

"This is all your fault!" with a sneer that says I'm only joking. Luna now looms over me and says

"Sage, I swear one more fucking time."

"It was Charlotte's idea," I say but instead of her turning to Charlotte or Charlotte taking the blame we are all laughing again, because we know it was all in good fun, it always is.