'Till Time Runs Out

Chapter 10: The Note

Doubbllee--- nah I dont even got to say it anymore.

-Darcy's POV-

The next morning I was awoken my Emily saying we had to leave to the airport. I almost felt like saying go without me but I knew my mum and she would never, ever let me stay home when Matthew is leaving. So I got up and got ready barely and we drove to the airport me not saying a word to Matthew and him not saying a word to me. I wouldn't even look at him I was so mad. The drive was fast and I was just thankful for him to be leaving. We walked through the airport in a row. Emily holding Matthews hand and me as far away from him as I could get and I could tell mum was suspicious since usually on these 'goodbye' days I would not leave Matthew's side and be balling my eyes out. But nope not today. And not ever again. We get to his gate and I stand off at the side and mum, dad and Emily say goodbye. My mum starring at me like i'm a mental patient the whole time. I'm sure she had assumed I was completely gone, absolutely crazy. So they said their goodbyes and Matthew looks over at me and I snap my head looking away. Though I minute later I could feel my heart crushing there was no way I was going to be able to live with myself if I let him go like this. He was walking towards his boarding place and I scream "Matthew". He turns around in an instant and I run towards him jumping in his arms tears streaming from my eyes. "I love you so much and i'm sorry for saying all that I said last night. I'm so so sorry" I sob in his arms.

"Hey you goof i'll be back in just 2 weeks and then we can see each other whenever we freaking want to! So stop crying and give me a big smile. I love you so much too Darc" he says squeezing me. He puts me down smiling at me and I smile back before turning around and going back to mum, dad and Emily. We leave the airport and I feel as if a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. Sure all that he had said yesterday was in my mind but for now that was shoved away and I didn't care. Because we were in a good place. Everything was going to be alright. We got home and when mum asked me to clean his room is screamed. There was no way I was washing those sheets. But she gave me the look. The look being 'I am your mother and you are going to do what I said'. So I trudged down the stairs and began cleaning his whole room. My mum was quite the clean freak. Everything had to be clean and we could be expecting guests at any moment so the room had to be cleaned. I was cleaning under his bed and found a few things. A shirt, which was normal for him he always forgot some peice of clothing, a random book that i'm sure he didn't care about and a crumpled up peice of paper. I opened it up and began to read. Which could be a bad thing cause I had no clue what it even was.

It began with To Darcy but then was scribled out, it was a very messy note but I now know it was for me.

"To My Bestfriend

If you are reading this than I assume your mum has put you to work on cleaning my room, then i'm sure you found probably some shirt of mine that I forgot and that stupid book that I purposely left there. Don't bother reading it or sending it back. Becca gave it to me and it was quite an aweful book. So you should probably shread it.
Now onto what I am actually writing about, after that fight we had tonight, well for you it would be last night. I could not sleep all night, I probably have got up about 10 times considering coming into your room and apologizing. Now if you never talk to me again because of the things I have said I will forever live in regret. I probably already will due to the amount of times I have hurt you over the years of us being together.
But hopefully we have talked and I have a feeling there was a big thing at the airport and knowing you, you probably waited till the last second to call my name and we had our emotional parting like we always have.
I guess I am writing this note because there is a million things I have to apologize for and I should probably write you a billion letters with a billion words on each just to explain how sorry I am. Because hurting you is always going to be the worst thing I have ever done. Now I know you feel as if I have changed since I started dating Becca and now that I have tried to see it from your point of view I see that I really have changed. You used to be everything to me, heck we probably called eachother on skype thousands of times over the past 12 years. But then I became a high schooler. Now high school is a dreadful thing and it changes you as a person and I believed I was to cool to be talking to a junior high student. Which was the first most selfish thing I have done, and i'm upset that it took me Becca to finally call you again. I remember that time I called you for the first time so vividly. You answered on the second ring like you always did, like you had been hoping i'd call for the past year and you were ready. I remember trying to keep my face from breaking because I was smiling so big. I remember your shocked face appearing across my screen and I remember how you almost cried which almost got me crying being the softy I am. I remember not knowing what to say and I remember how bad it hurt knowing that I hurt you. I remember the feeling of wanting to hop on a plane and just leave LA for good, leave everyone behind just to come and be with you.
I remember introducing you to Becca for the first time and you leaving the room because you were sick. I laughed so hard after that. Which is a rude thing to admit but I never realised why you did that. Maybe someday you will tell me. I look forward to the days we have. The eternity we have, I look forward to the days of us lying around watching movies but also the days of us travelling the whole world like we always planned. We are going to have such a great life Darcy. We really will. I would never pick any other person to be my best friend.
And it's probably not something to say since I do have a girlfriend. But you are everything to me, and you are the most important person in my life. You really are and I am going to spend everyday of the rest of our lives making sure you realise that. You mean so much to me.

Love, Matthew"

There were tears pouring from my eyes as I read this note. Part of me was crying of happiness because this was one of the sweetest letters I had ever gotten but the other part of me was crying because I knew that we would not have that eternity. The fact that our eternity of movie watching and world travelling may never happen crushed me more than anything on this planet. I realise now that the Matthew that I thought had changed was still the same Matthew that I had cuddled up on the couch with watching movies when we were young. He is still the same Matthew that gave me his favourite action figure when he left all those years ago. He's still always going to be my best friend.

Later on that night Michael had come over to come and get me. He took me out for dinner but even he could tell something was off. We had been dating for almost a month and I was happy with him. He made me happy. "Princess whats wrong?" he asks and I cant help but frown.

"I just miss Matthew" I mutter and that really was all it was. Everytime he would leave there would be a hole inside of me for a while. Sure soon enough it would be temporarily replaced but it would never really be filled unless it was filled by Matthew and I no longer mean Matthew as my boyfriend but Matthew as my bestfriend.

"I am never going to be able to fill that hole am I" he says to me. We had only be dating for a month but he already understood me so well. I shake my head.

"Michael, Matthew is my best friend and sure he will always be my best friend and I will always love him.. But only as my best friend. I am with you, and you already do fill a hole in me. A hole that only you can fill. I'm with you Michael and only want to be with you" I tell him giving him a kiss. For the rest of the night Michael manages to distract me from how I am feeling. Which I love. No matter how I am feeling Michael always manages to make me feel better. All the time. We finish of the great night and he takes me home. But once I am alone with no distractions I lie in bed thinking about Matthew and only wanting to talk to Matthew. Usually he would call once he returns home. It was 11pm here so that means it was 3 there and Matthew was definetly with Becca. Since his plane only just got there 2 hours ago. Time difference is an annoying this and I was unsure when he would call me next. Probably not untill tomorrow night since he would most likey be spending the rest of the day and all night with Becca. I usually stay up fairly late and at 3am I get a facebook message. It must have been 7pm there why would he be messaging me.

"From Matthew Court

Hey Darc. I would have messaged you earlier but i've been busy all day. You are probably asleep but I just wanted to tell you i'm here. And Becca and I found an appartment! It is about 20 minutes away from your place though. Which isn't to bad I guess. I hope you got my note. I will call you tomorrow goodnight."

He knew I wasn't asleep I think he just said that because Becca was probably right beside him and he may not have wanted to have a conversation right now since he was to busy. The fact that his place was probably in bus distance put a smile on my face and I read the note one more time before falling asleep. I would never get tired of reading that note.

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There we go guys. Hope you enjoyed this chapter.
I still want to know Michael or Matthew.

I cant decide!! I like them both!!

-Hannah(: