'Till Time Runs Out

Chapter 17: No Reason To Fight

-Darcy's POV-

I didn't think Matthew was being serious when he said that he needed a break from me, we had never taken a actual wanted break before. I had to hold back from calling him or even texting him everyday. He was my bestfriend and it had been 2 weeks. Nothing had changed. I still wanted him. In these 2 weeks I realised everything that everyone had been saying over the years was true. Matthew and I weren't just friends. I had always been trying to convince everyone that I did not have feelings for Matthew, and now I realise I wasn't trying to convince them. I was trying to convince myself. And now that I have finally realised I have feelings for him I just cant push them away, he's all I think about, this break he needs, is only making the way I feel for him stronger and only making me miss him more. I need to see him, or talk to him or something. I know what I have to do. I pull out my phone and send a text to him. 

To; Matthew

We need to talk.. Come pick me up?

I send that and my heart begins to race. I feel nervous. I've never felt nervous to see Matthew before. A few minutes later he replies. 

From; Matthew 

Ok be there in 10.

I cant sit still, I really dont like this feeling. I am checking the time every 2 secounds cant walk by a mirror without checking to see if I look ok. I feel ridiculous. The 10 minutes drag on but when there is a knock on the door I have to contain my excitement. I open it to see Matthew standing there and I have to strongly hold myself back from pouncing on him. 

"Hey" I say with a smile. So badly wanting to be in his arms breathing in his cologne. 

"Hey" he replies. "So should we go?" he asks. I nod my head. As I look at his car I cant help but relive the memories of him pressing me against it. I get in and he turns on the music, it feels so awkward and I hate it. We pull up to a park and start walking. 

"Ok you were right" I say, even though it kills me to say it. 

"Right about what?" he asks. 

"About us. We aren't right for each other, I dont feel anything towards you, it was just a heat of the moment kind of thing. I need you as my best friend thats it" I say. Every single one of those words was a lie. We walk for a little bit in silence before he replies.

"Yeah you are completely right. I need you as my best friend thats it..." he mutters. "So I met this girl" he says and my heart drops and I have to keep strong, if I break now then he will know and wont want to see me anymore. 

"Oh really where?" I ask like I genuinly care. Which I dont I couldn't care less about this girl. 

"She's in one of my classes, we were partnered up, she's super nice. We went out for dinner last night" he tells me and I cant help but blurt out.

"Did you guys have sex?" I cover up my mouth immediately. On a scale of one to embarassing that breaks the scale. 

"Uhh" he scratches the back of his head awkwardly.

"Oh so you did" I mutter and he nods his head. Ok maybe I cant do this, I will never be able to look at him as just my best friend again and talking about girls like this, there is no way I will be able to handle it. My stomach begins turning and I feel as if I am about to puke. "I think i'm going to be sick" I say and run over to a tree before doubling over and vomiting out my entire insides. He's behind me holding my hair and that just makes me even sicker. Once i've puked out everything inside of me I immediately apologize. This is like the time he introduced me to Becca all over again. I pop some gum in my mouth and feel as if I could just die right now. I have reached a new high of embarassment and not showing my face ever again doesn't sound like a bad idea. "Must have ate some bad food" I say hoping that I can get away with that.