After Rammstein

Fate

Richard had tried to call multiple times... I couldn't answer the phone, I knew if I did... I'd forgive him for his harshness towards me and the baby...and I just can't do that. Today I hadn't planned on doing anything in particular, so I just stayed inside. I decided I'd make the dreaded phone call to my parents.. I dialed the number and held the phone to my ear.. Ring... Ring... Ring, I almost hung up but on the last ring my moms voice rang out "hello?" I smiled and placed my hand on my stomach, I needed the support. "Hi mom!" I was honestly glad to hear her, I needed her motherly advice and just all around I needed her. "Ivy! Baby! How are you doing let me go get your father-" I quickly interrupted her "no! I kinda need to talk to you.. Just for a minute, and then I'll talk to dad" her voice was soft in wonder "okay honey, what Is it?" I debated on just telling her something small and not telling her.. "Can you promise me you won't be mad or disappointed?" My voice was hopeful but I knew no matter how much she'd promise there would still be sadness within.. "What is it Ivy? I won't get mad.. Or disappointed now please tell me what's going on" I sighed "mom.. I'm...I'm pregnant" I heard a loud shaky gasp on the other side of the phone "mom?" I asked, "I'm here.. I don't know what to say... I mean I'm happy for you but you're still so young. Whose the father baby?" I couldn't throw Richard under the bus like this, I knew my parents would get him in as much trouble as they could.. So since I knew my mom would already be disappointed in me.. I knew what I'd have to say... "I-I don't know.. I'm sorry mommy" I felt like a vulnerable child, but my mothers response surprised me "it'll be all okay baby, lots of single moms make the best of moms" I smiled her tone didn't sound sad or sarcastic.. It sounded genuine. "I need to tell your father baby, it'll be better if you don't tell him.." I agreed and we said our goodbyes "oh Ivy!" I pulled the phone back to my ear "yeah mom?" I waited as silence came from the phone "take care of the baby, don't do anything stupid.. No drinking and no eating fish okay?" I smiled "okay, thanks mom" and we hung up. I was honestly surprised she didn't yell at me... I was relieved and I loved her for this.
After all was said and done I was again left with nothing to do.. Until there was a knock on the door, it's probably housekeeping.. I opened the door not to see room housekeeping but to see Richard.. "Hi..." I muttered, I didn't want to see him.. Not now at least. "Hi, can I come in?" How'd he even know where I was? Geez. But I moved out of the way opening the door farther for him "sure" my voice was soft and gentle.. I didn't want to argue, I had enough of that yesterday. He walked in and just took in the hotel room "what do you want?" I asked curious, I mean you don't deny my baby then come back to just look at the hotel room "and how'd you know where I was?" He just sighed "I.. Got Paul drunk and he told me." Of course you did... But that still didn't answer my original question but I just nodded... "So you're here why?" He looked down to the floor "I wanted to say that I'm sorry... I shouldn't have acted out like that" damn skippy you shouldn't have! "I should never have accused you of being with Till, and more importantly I shouldn't have said you were a mistake" I nodded but there was one more vital thing he forgot to apologize for... The baby! "Yet you still don't want the baby?" My hand went protectively to my stomach "how many tests did you take?" Oh shit...

I had only taken one... The first can give you a false response, just sometimes though "one" he huffed in relief, why's he acting relieved?! It's my baby! It's not like he wanted it! "I'll take another one then.. I'll take five just to be sure, but I know one thing... It'll be my child" Reesh squinted his eyes all signs of relief were gone "what?" I mentally rolled my eyes, was he really this stupid? "The. Baby. Is. Mine... You made it very clear you didn't want either of us yesterday" I grabbed my keys and purse then grabbed Reesh's arm "wha-?" I stopped pulling him and rolled my eyes "you're coming too. You may not support this baby later, but you're damn sure going to right now!" I just walked off expecting him to follow as he did.

As I got int he drivers seat, Reesh got in on the passenger seat "you want me to drive?" He asked innocently "I'm pregnant not incompetent..but yes I actually do want you to drive.." He smirked and laughed a little, he began opening his door when I practically crawled over on top of him but keeping myself raised above him. "Hurry! I can't stand like this forever!" He laughed again but didn't get out, "Richard, come on! Move!" But he didn't... Finally I lost my grip on the dashboard and fell on top of him, I gasped and tried to jolt back up but strong arms wrapping themselves around me kept me still "what are you doing?!" My voice didn't hide its irritation. "You remember what you said... The day before our date?" Uhh.. No? I shook my head, still trying to wiggle of him. "You said, you wanted to do it in this car" I froze.. Shit! I did say that! But not now! What the hell?! "No..no, we have a serious matter to take care of! I'm not doing you in the damn car!" He smiled in my neck and tickled me with his breathe "I'll make sure you're pregnant.. After I'm done with you" oh.. Woah.. Me gusta. No! Bad Ivy! I mentally slapped myself "no! Now go drive or get out.." He chuckled a bit but did eventually move seats, purposefully making his... Crotch bump against my behind.. As much as I wanted to jump him, he hurt me... I was a mistake.

After getting the tests form a store not sparing any expense, I mean I wanted to know if I was fucking pregnant or not! I didn't care if I had to spend hundreds of euros! I had followed the directions and peed on all the sticks, now it was the waiting game.. Richard stayed onto help out.. I mean, I was just peeing on sticks I don't know what he really wanted to help with but I knew he wanted to see the results just as much as I did. He's still a douche though...

My phone rang and I checked to see if it was my alarm telling me the tests were done but it was my dad... Crap. "Hello, daddy?" I held the phone a little away from my ear, I knew he'd be pissed.. "Ivy! I-.. Your mother gave me the news..." I sighed, Richard who was sitting on the couch eventually picked up on my tone and began listening and watching warily "oh.. Are you disappointed in me?" I asked in a low voice... I didn't want Richard hearing that but he did and he looked down to the floor, obviously he understood this was a awkward family matter "I'd be lying if I said I wasn't. I just wish you knew who the father was... I mean how does that even happen Ivy? You're a bright girl.. You had a bright future ahead of you.. Now you'll be lucky if you end up on the tv show Teen Mom" I huffed "I wish I knew who he was too dad.. And I don't know how I don't know, there's no excuse for it and I take full responsibility. But I do wish you'd support me, I know I won't be a perfect mother but.. I'll do my best and I'll love him or her every second of the day, I'll teach him or her how you taught me to be.. Strong and independent but most of all forgiving and caring." Richard looked up from the floor, he looked almost teary eyed. "Ivy, that was beautiful baby girl. I'll no doubt support you and I know you'll make a great mom, I just wish the baby would have a father.. Try and find him Ivy, for the baby.. Okay?" I frowned "I'll try to dad, but I can't promise anything and I can't promise he'll want it" I glanced to Richard who began fidgeting with his thumbs.. "Just try honey..that's all I can ask. But I'm going to go lay down for awhile.. I love you Ivy" I smiled, he didn't sound mad and he didn't yell at me "love you too, daddy" and we hung up.. I miss him so much..

I sat back in the seat I was in and closed my eyes trying to control my emotions. "Was he mad?" I opened my eyes but kept looking at the ceiling "no..disappointed yes, but mad, no" I spoke softly feeling like shit. "Sorry.. Do they know that.. I'm the father?" Oh so now he claims it?! "No. I told them I don't know who it is... No need to get them pissed off at you too" I groaned, "what are you going to tell them when you go back?" So he isn't coming to? "Well that depends.." I looked directly at him and he gave me a look that told me to keep going "it depends on if you go back with me or not.. If so then I'll tell them, they won't be happy but it's not their decision but if you don't then the baby grows up with a mystery father.." I hated saying that but it was the truth. "I.. I'm not going back, Ivy.. I wanted you to stay.. Before-" I scoffed "before the baby.." Prick "damnit! We don't even know if there is a god damn baby! Let's just wait it out!" I rolled my eyes "well let's start waiting by you being quiet. Getting me kicked outs not going to help" he sighed but nodded and sat down..he was obviously angry but fuck! I am too! He wanted me to stay here?! How fucking naive is he? He lost those privileges when he called me a mistake.. But for my sanity and the possible babies stress level I held my tongue and kept the peace.

After almost twenty minutes later my phone dinged signaling the tests were ready, I looked to Richard who looked back with widened eyes. We hadn't said another word since our argument earlier. I got up trying to act like I wasn't anxious but as soon as I got out of his line of sight I ran in the bathroom grabbing one stick at a time.. They all had the same symbol on them.. They were positive. [+]