After Rammstein

Coping

~Magical Time Skip!~

It's been a while since getting back from Germany. I had given birth to a healthy baby girl named Berlynn K. Parker, the K obviously standing for Kruspe. She was the beautifulest thing I had ever seen, she had my brown hair but by some beloved miracle she inherited Richards bright blue eyes.. They suited her nicely. As young as she was, she was still a mommies girl.. And I loved it. I thought I'd be tired or annoyed of her within the first couple of days but once I got into the swing of things I couldn't have been more happier. Richard and I haven't spoken to each other since I had left.. It was partially my fault because I didn't want any contact with him, I didn't want reminders.. Berlynn was enough. I had the chance to text him or call him but I didn't take it.. And we'll, neither did he. I was a little sad when I didn't get a call asking how she was... Well he technically doesn't even know the baby's sex yet.. Oops.

I had my own home and no.. It wasn't a mansion but it was a modern two story house in a nice community. The preschool was great.. And I didn't have to get a job since my mom and dad persisted they paid for everything I needed.. And once I seen how much babies actually cost, well I didn't turn them down. Again, the luxuries of being filthy rich. I had talked to the guys a few times, it was nice.. But the only one who I had actually sent a baby picture to was Flake, of course he was free to show the other guys. I had actually planned on visiting Germany but decided to wait until Berlynn was older. My parents were still kind of pissed that I slept with my german tutor.. Oh, yeah.. I did tell them he was the father. But my dad adored her the most... He always visits along with my mother to see her, mom eventually retired from acting.. But dad remained the guitar company owner..band yes the Poison Ivy collection did quite well, it was sold out within two hours.things were finally looking up for me... The only thing missing was Richard. Occasionally I'd put on a Rammstein song and music video and let her see her daddy.. This time it was 'sonne'.

As the video continued on Berlynn just bounced around and clapped with a huge smile on her face.. Like she knew.. "Look Berlynn! It's daddy! Looky, baby girl!" Her smile got even bigger as she sat still almost mesmerized by him. I don't regret anything from those days in Germany.. They gave me Berlynn. That's why I named her Berlynn.. Instead of Berlin... I just switched the ending around, and if I may say so.. It was quite perfect for her. Though I'll never tell her about her conceiving.. She doesn't need to know the fights mommy and daddy had, all she needs to know is we both love her very much.. Even though he didn't really know of her... Ugh.

I looked down at the gorgeous little girl sitting in my lap as the song 'Klavier' began coming on.. This was Berlynn's favorite, I could tell. She'd sway around, and it was like Till's voice lulled her to sleep... Even though I thought it was impossible to fall asleep to a Rammstein song but hey, I'm not complaining.. She liked the sound her daddy made with the guitar and sadly something told me that's as close as she's going to get to him, but that's okay! All she needs is her loving mommy!

A/N: Sorry it was so short! I wanted to introduce the baby and not really have Richard in it yet! There's only one part left! AHHH! By the way... The picture.. Oh. My. God. I want that baby <3