I can't fall in love || D.M.

•chapter 6•

~I win~

Its been about a week since all that happened and me Rose and Pansy are getting closer every day.

Pansy and Blaise are now dating, when she told us me and
Rose nearly made her deaf with our high pitch squeals.

I was so happy for her, but I couldn't help but feel scared for her. Love is a thing I'd like to stay away from.

Draco and I fought a lot. It usually started by him calling a name and me teasing him. It was a bit boring. Sometimes I wish he would just have a normal conversation with me.

Me, Rose and Pansy decided to have a girls night. We have been busy with school and wanted to take time away from everyone. I got into some shorts and a big black t shirt with a random band at the front of it.

"Right so who wants to get high" pansy said grabbing a zip lock bag with some weed in it.

"Me of course" Rose says.

"What about you, dip shit" Pansy laughs looking at me.

"I've never done it before" I say shyly.

"Ok time to loose your weed virginity" she says turning on some music she turned it down very low, even tho we had a silencing spell on the door.

Then she rolled a spliff, she shows me how to smoke it and passes it to me. I take a drag and cough slightly. We all take it in turns and the atmosphere feels way calmer.

"So let's play never have I ever" Rose said.

"You and playing fucking games are you
thirteen?" Pansy laughs.

"Fuck off I wanna learn more about you hoes, we always gossip about others but I don't know a lot about you two... your both so secretive" she says.

"Ok ok, never have I ever... given head" Pansy says smirking.

"I have" i say laughing.

"We've all done that" Rose said chuckling.

"Never have I ever... had sex" Pansy said taking a drag of the spliff and passing it to me.

I take a drag and Blaise walks in with Alex, Max and Draco. Mine and Dracos eyes met automatically. I looked away and passed the split to Rose.

"I've been summoned" Blaise said smirking.

"What the fuck did I just hear" Alex says sitting next to me. Alex and me weren't very close we hardly ever spoke.

"Fuck off we were having a girly night" Rose said passing me the joint again.

"We were playing never have I ever the question was never have I ever had sex" Pansy said looking at Blaise.

They all said they had and I just stayed quiet. It is nothing to be ashamed of I wanted it to be special.

"Well... you didn't answer Ariel" Max said and all eyes were on me.

"I- no I haven't" I said taking a drag and passing it to Alex. I ended up leaning my head on his shoulder.

"I can change that for you if you like" Alex whispers in my ear making me burst out laughing. He took a drag and passed it to Draco who looked angry as always.

"As if she'd fuck you with that hair cut" Max laughed and Draco smiled a little.

"I don't know what you laughing at Blondie" Alex said to Draco.

"Fuck off, I didn't see her on her knees for either of you" he snapped passing the joint to Max.

"Oh shit so that's who you gave head too" Rose gasped. I nodded not really listening. Draco kept looking at me sending shivers down my spine.

"Oi it was relaxing before you guys decided to crash our sleep over, don't make us kick you out" Pansy said and I laughed as Alex was stroking my hair.

"Fucking weirdo" I mutter still laughing.

"What do you want us to leave you alone so you can have a pillow fight in your under wear" Max laughed.

"You can join if you like" I say still looking at Alex, he has such nice eyes they were brown but looked like honey.

Not as nice as Dracos grey eyes but still cute. Why am I still thinking about Draco. Maybe it's the joint. Everyone looked at me until I said I was kidding. I thought that would have been obvious.

"Well I can't say no to that" Alex said winking at me. I couldn't help but blush, I slapped his arm playfully.

We talked all night I ended up being dared to kiss Alex. It was a passionate kiss but it wasn't romantic I didn't feel anything.

I haven't felt anything in a long time, since I found out about my mother and father.

The boys left and Pansy and Rose fell asleep. I thought I'd be unconscious because I just smoked a spliff but I wasn't I was wide awake.

I crept out of my dorm not even bothering to put my shorts back on or any shoes. I left in a t shirt and some underwear. I just figured no one would be out so I'd go up to the astronomy tower. I liked it up there I felt like I had some control over my life.

I walked up the stairs and walked towards the railing. I stood there for about 10 minutes until I decided to stand on the railing holding onto a pillar.

I felt more alive that I ever have before. I was in charge. I didn't feel fearful I was calm. I sat over the edge dangling my feet. Kicking them in the light breeze.

"What are you doing?" A familiar voice said I turned my head slowly and saw Draco.

I didn't answer so he sat next to me. "Why are you here?" He asked softly.

"I'm confused I just... want to feel something... I don't know it's stupid what are you doing here?" I say trying to change the subject.

"I come up here to think" he says looking at the stars.

The moonlight made his skin look soft and his eyes almost looked transparent.

He looked so attractive.

"What about?" I said and he went quiet.

"Everything" he said so quietly I barely heard him.

I shivered as the wind slowly began to pick up. He handed me a hoodie. Now he was just in a t shirt and his plaid bottoms.

"you can wear it I guess... who leaves there room in fucking underwear and a t shirt?" He said.

"Fuck off" I laugh taking his hoodie and putting it on. It was so big and warm.

We stare into the view for a while not saying anything. He was smiling her looks so cute when he smiles.

"You know you're actually tolerable when your not slamming me up against a wall" I laugh.

"I know you love it really..." as he says that I stand up and start walking.

"Hmm... last one to the slytherin common room looses" I say opening the door.

"you're acting like a five year old... for fuck sake" he says running after me.

I'm already at the bottom of the stairs about to reach the common room when he grabs my hand and pins me up the wall.

"I win" he says and our lips smash into each other's.

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A/n: Heyy hope you liked this chapter. I thought it was cute, I'll be posting more today tysm for reading. Oh and sorry it's late I fell asleep 🖤