I can't fall in love || D.M.

•chapter 34•

*tw: abuse and self harm*
(also sexual content)
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~late~

I told him. I told him everything. The kidnapping, the abuse the self harm and the nightmares. I felt a weight being lifted from my shoulders.

I couldn't help but wonder why I told him. I didn't even tell draco and we dated.

I felt safe with him. I haven't felt safe in a long time.

"I- I'm so sorry" he said.

I just looked down at my hands "it's fine it was a long time ago"

"Who else knows?" He asked.

"Just you and my grandmother" I said looking up at him.

"Not even Draco?" He slightly smiled.

"No just you"

"What makes me so special?" he asked.

"I feel safe with you" I said as him move a piece of lose hair behind my ear.

My eyes darted from his eyes to his lips, I wanted to kiss him so bad.

"We should get ready, I need to shower and snape will kill us if Were late again" I said as I walked to the bathroom.

When I got undressed I wrapped the towel as I waited for the water to warm up.

I heard the door but I just assumed it was like leaving. I was wrong.

I felt arms around my waist. "We're gonna be late.." I say as he kissing my neck. He was in his boxers.

"That's the exciting thing" he whispered in my ear.

"Fuck" I throw my head back as his hands travel to the end of the towel right by my thighs. I suddenly become aware that I'm naked but I didn't care.

He slowly tugged the towel down, it slipped down my body exposing my breasts. It was now resting on my hips.

I feel Luke smirk against my neck, I moan as the cold air causes me to got goosebumps.

"Luke we need to-" he cut me off.

"You aren't in control, I make the orders" he snapped.

He turned me around to face him and the towel dropped completely.

Vulnerable.

He looked me up and down he smirked. I did the same he was wearing just his boxers. His tanned skin made his abs look amazing. I looked down he was hard.

He noticed the scars on my arms. I usually hid them with a charm but I didn't today. There was one on my arm and another on my shoulder. The others had faded ages ago but these stayed a little longer. They were made by my mother and Voldemort, they were the deepest ones.

He stared at them before kissing me again. It was an angry kiss full of lust. He pulled his boxers off and We stumbled into the shower. The water only made him look more attractive.

He kissed down my neck and then my scars I tried to cover them. "Don't you fucking dare" he snapped as he pinned me up the wall by my waist. He kissed my arm and my shoulder where the scars were and then pinned my hands above my head.

I didn't notice before but he was huge, I longed for him to fill me. I hadn't been intimate since mine and Dracos one night stand. This was driving me crazy.

His hands moved down to my entrance and teased me. I grinder against his hand. "Say my name, whore" he said.

"Luke please" I said and when I did he entered two fingers inside me without hesitation.

I moaned causing him to grunt "please what?" He pumped his fingers inside of me faster. I felt my climax coming so I bucked my hips.

He knew and he smirked evilly. "Please fuck me" I begged.

"Sorry I cant were gonna be late" he mocked pulling his fingers out of me leaving me frustrated.

"Fuck you" I laughed.

"Hmm you were just saying something about that" he hummed.

I rolled my eyes, he got changed and I stayed in the shower, I scrubbed my body and washed my hair as fast as I could.

When I was finished I walked around getting changed as I stumbled out of the bathroom. I was in my underwear, socks and was slipping my shoes on as I buttoned up my shirt.

When I was ready to leave I saw that Luke was still here, watching me as he sat on my bed.

I walk over to him and straddle him as I palm his clothed bulge. He got hard as soon as I sat on his lap. He grunted as I rocked back and forth.

I check my watch 9:01am Class starts at 9:00am shit.

"We're late" I whisper in his ear as I got off of him, I ran towards the door and he caught up before I reached for the handle. He pinned me up the door "you'll pay for that later, love" he leant forward our lips inches away from each other.

I grasped the door known and twisted it almost falling as I darted out of the room for my life. I giggled as I ran down the corridor, I felt him gaining on me. I managed to stay a few feet in-front of him but he was slowly closing the gap between us.

Finally i reached snapes class room. I burst the door open and walked inside to see everyone looking at me as I panted trying to catch my breath.

Snape looked at me "miss Lestrange? Late again-" he was cut off by Luke running in after i did, he stopped behind me looking at snape.

"Ah Mr crouch... late as-well?" He sneered.

"Sorry pro-" I started.

"Just take a seat before I give you both a detention" he cut me off turning back to the board.

We walked quickly to our seat. "How didn't you get a detention?" Alex asked in disbelief.

" Snape loves me obviously" I said maybe a little too loud.

Snape shot me a glare but I swear saw a slight smile on his face. Snape was by far my favourite professor.

My eyes wondered around the room, I realised Draco isn't here... he's probably sleeping with another girl. I couldn't care less.

Me and Luke joked and messed around until someone came in... Draco. He looked awful his hair was messy, his tie was loose and he buttoned his shirt up wrong.

"Mr Malfoy you're late... detention" snape said.

Me and Luke continued to talk about our family well... mostly about his. I learnt that his uncle: Barty crouch jr. Was his uncle and his dad was Elliot Crouch. His father married a witch (his mother) which meant he was a pure blood. He didn't seem comfortable talking about his home life so I changed the subject.

"Oh I have the beach house to myself this half term, I'm aloud to invite some people... do you want to come?" I ask looking from the board to his eyes.

"Sure sounds fun" he smirked.

I ended up asking Blaise and Alex as well since Pansy and Rose practically begged me. I didn't mind though we are all close.

I questioned wether or not to ask Draco.

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A/n: hey loves <3

There will be triggering content coming up, this and previous chapters might be upsetting aswell so if you need to talk message me :) I have history with sh and it doesn't really trigger me but everyone's different. Also what do you think they're going to get dramatic 🖤🥰