His blurred eyes

Rey

Thursday 07:54 am

"Everybody, make your way to class!" The teachers in the hallway assemble to get the students to their right place.  

I've been in the class for half an hour already.
Being the only one in the school gives this good feeling.

And I didn't want to face Nola, George and the rest. Knowing they will look at me with worry.

And it makes me even more guilty.
For being the way I am.

"Okay everyone, take your geography book on page 73!"
And the usual begins.

Lunch

"Hey..." I had to take my sight off my delicious sandwich to see the person.

The delight I was feeling turned to anger.
Cigarette guy.

"Nova I'm-"

"Nope!"
I take the sandwich and leave. The only place left is the tree.

It isn't ideal since it is raining but I found a piece of cardboard and sat on it.
The big leaves sheltering me from most of the rain.

My head automatically leans on the tree. My eyes are heavy. Too heavy.

Sleep.
No..

You know you want it.
It's what you want.

Didn't you say I was you?
Don't turn this against me.

I'm only repeating your words
You're twisting my words!

Sleep
No! Stop it!

Sleep and let me invade you
Shut up you're not real!

Not real?
You're pure imagination

THEN STOP IMAGINING ME
I CAN'T

WHY? TELL ME
YOU KNOW WHY

LET ME TAKE OVER
JUST FUCKING STOP!!

"Nova?"
I breath in like a heavy weight was lifted from my chest after ages.
Gulping.

"Class is starting."
I nod and stumble after standing up. The male looking at me like I'm crazy.

Great! Now he thinks I'm a psychopath!

That's because you are...

You literally want to invade me so shut up. And you're dumb too because you can't fucking do that.

Lies...

Thursday 07:42 pm

I'm going to the market. Working the night shift today. Chase Atlantic blasting in my eardrums.

Perfect match with this rainy day. When I arrived at the closest bus stop by the grocery store, I step out.
A man walking behind me.

He's following you
He's just a man going on the same path as me.

I'm telling you. He's following you.
Stop being so fucking paranoid! He's normal.

Tell him to stop.
No.

Do it.
No! You're making a fuss out of nothing!

DO IT NOW!
I won't do i-

"Excuse me sir? Are you following me?"
I ask. The other half of me won. I can't deal with all the pressure I put on my stupid self.

"Uh- no? I live here.."
The man distances himself from me.

"Oh I'm sorry I'm just paranoid.."
I pull my beanie down, people could barely see me now. I felt so embarrassed.

I did it. You happy now?!
Very delighted.

"Hey Nova!"
I wave at my colleague who I'm replacing today. She's nice. I don't talk to her a lot though.

I wear the stupid badge. Questioning its meaning again.
My first task was to fill the blank spots on the shelves.

Then I started being the cashier again. No Karens today.
Until now when someone far worse came in.

I scan the cigarette package, I personally use, and tell the price. After he or she paid, the person handed out the package to me.

I looked up and I realised.
Not this motherfucker again.

"What are you doing here?" I ask the guy. Very dry.

"Giving the pack I stole from you back."
I scoff in disbelief at the gesture I am supposed to find kind.

I look around first. No one is here.

Embarrass him. Don't worry...I will.

"Do I look that pathetic to you that you bought me a stupid cigarette pack in the place I work at?!"
I am furious.

"Nova I didn't mean it like tha- I just don't want you to hate me anymore." He kept calm.

"Get out of here."
I step away from my zone and push him towards the exit.

"Not until you forgive me! Do you really hate me because I stole your cigs?" The man is screaming now too.

For different reasons.

"I'm not a child to hate you for that!"
"Then why do you?"

"Because you made me like this Rey!"
I hit him. Hard. Harder than I should've.

"Wha- What's wrong with you Nova?"

"You left. You triggered the stupid other side of me and now I have to deal with being a psychopath 24/7! You broke me first!"
I teared up. I never want to see him again.

Part of my hell of a life is because of him.

"Nova you know it wasn't my choi-"

"Get out..., get out!!"

He did. I looked for my puffer hysterically and took it. Breathing in as I slid to the floor.

A tear fell. With shivering fingers, I typed a message to Nola.

"Don't wait for me. I'm going to my apartment."

You're too emotional. If I was in control this wouldn't have happened..

Of course it wouldn't. You would have killed him.

Author's note:

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