in which ji changmin falls for a portrait of a boy with a bright red rose pin on his jacket.
or
in which choi chanhee gets his picture drawn every year at the university art fair
highest rankings:
#1 in nyukyu
#1 in kyunyu
chanhee switched his phone off, closing his eyes and instinctively fiddling with his pin.
he didn't know what it was he was feeling. was it sadness? anger? disappointment? he couldn't pinpoint it but all he knew was that he felt numb.
numbness wasn't new to him - after years of relying only on himself, feeling numb was the best he could muster. that was, of course, before people like younghoon came into his life, trying his best to resurrect any sense of vitality that chanhee had long given up on. and, although his mind wandered to younghoon at first, he couldn't help but to think of changmin as well.
ji changmin: the human ebodiment of love itself. everyone adored him, everyone wanted to be with him and yet, when changmin invested his time into him of all people, he couldn't help but push him away.
he was trying.
although he knew that it wasn't that overt, he truly was trying but trust and affection were two things he could never quite express seeing as how he had been robbed of those two things so often before.
trust often lead to disappointments and affection was simply something that he hadn't really been taught.
staring at his computer screen, he could see his own reflection on the black screen from his tired eyes to his disheveled hair. with a sigh, he stood up, grabbed his mask and bag and left his room, deciding that he couldn't even drown his thoughts through schoolwork.
letting his feet take him wherever they wanted to, he soon found himself standing in front of the convenience store that hi changmin had bought the giraffe from. and, after a few moments of standing idly by the store, he sighed once more and took out his phone, searching through the choir group chat to find jacob's number.
as expected, he picked up almost immediately, the cheer in his voice still so evident. "hi chanhee-"
"are you with your boyfriend?" chanhee asked and from the other side of the call, he could hear shuffling and indistinguishable chatter before someone picked up the phone again.
"it's kevin speaking!"
"what snacks does your friend ji changmin like?" he heard kevin gasp, jacob telling him to put the phone on speaker so he could hear as well. "it's really not that big of a deal. why the hell are you two making it seem like it is?"
"well, you've never called me before and when you finally do, it's to ask about ji changmin's preference so i for one think it is a big deal," jacob said, kevin agreeing with him and only causing chanee to sigh out loud while rolling his eyes.
