Love Me Tomorrow

PROLOGUE

"I want a divorce." para akong nabingi sa lamig nang pagkakasabi niya. I was paralyzed for a moment before blinking rapidly, unable to process what he just said. Am I hearing it wrong? Or he already know how to throw a joke?

"Tage?" I managed to say. He just look at me with his foreign expression. I can't read what is running in his mind. Wala akong mabakas na emosiyon sa mga mata niya.

I count in my mind. One of these numbers he's going to laugh and tell me that my expression was hilarious. I bite the inside of my cheeks to refrain myself from crying. Who am I trying to convince, of course myself. My husband doesn't know how to joke. He wouldn't tell me something if it isn't a fact.

"W-What are you saying?" I stuttered.

"Just grant what I want, Ynessa." he coldly reply. I know he wasn't warm to begin with but for once, I want him to stop being cold! Kahit ngayon lang. Habang sinasabi sakin ang dahilan niya. Just for tonight!

I fucking expected something from this dinner! Hindi ang kagaya nito. I was in my happiest when I read his message telling me to meet him in this Restaurant, hoping that we'll dine in here like a newly wed who are full of love. I even told myself that, atlast, Magdadate kami ng asawa ko!

I'm so stupid for thinking that it would be a date. Kahit malamig siya sakin, ni minsan hindi sumagi sa isip ko na makikipaghiwalay siya sakin. I love his coldness. Wala akong pakialam kong magyelo kaming dalawa sa kalamigan niya dahil hindi siya ang lalaking mahal ko kung una palang ay mainit na ang pakikisama niya sa akin. He's my cold Tage Lasten Del Prado, my husband.

"Why are you saying that sick joke?" kumakapit pa rin ako kahit impossible na baka marunong na siyang magbiro. Kahit ito ang pinaka hindi dapat ginagawang biro ay tatawanan ko basta bawiin niya lang.

"Stop joking and let's just eat." I managed not to break down. Kinuha ko ang utensils at sinimulang hiwain ang steak na nasa plato ko.

"I don't love you." Fuck! Too much damage on my part.

"Just eat your damn food, Tage!" I suppressed my real emotion. I shouldn't breakdown. Hindi dapat.

"I don't love you to begin with." he continued. Why don't you just keep your mouth shut? Why do you have to slap me with that intense reality, huh?

"You fulfilled your parents dying wish, Ynessa. We've been in this unhappy marriage for 5 years already."

"Can't you make it six? Seven? Ten years? A fucking lifetime, Tage?" I sounded so desperate.

"I did my part. Do your part now. We agreed that we'll get divorce once it didn't work out. And it didn't. I don't even like this marriage." he's too honest, huh. His honesty is breaking me into tiny pieces. I agreed because I am positive that I'll make him love me. Sa loob ng limang taon ay hindi na sumagi pa sa akin na hihilingin niya pa rin ang bagay na 'to.

"You shouldn't have come, then."

We're not boyfriend and girlfriend when we got married. I like him at the age of eighteen and now that I'm twenty-six, I love him. My parents died when I'm twenty-one. And their dying wish is for me to marry the heir of the Del Prados, Tage Lasten Del Prado.

At first, I didn't know why they want me to marry him but when I finally met him, I know I wanted him in my life. I like someone for the first time. My young heart beats for him.

Naulila ako dahil sa aksidente ng mga magulang ko kaya sa akin naiwan ang kompanya. I took the chance to use my card to be with the Del Prado. I want him, by hook or by crook. I used the advantage that my family owns twenty-five percent share in their company. Ginipit ko siya para mapilitan siyang pakasalan ako and I succeeded.

Call me selfish but that's what I know to have him in my life. He married me but he told me that we can divorce if the marriage didn't work out. How will it work if he's not even trying? At hindi ko alam na ngayon niya hihingin sakin 'to. I shouldn't have married him there! Dapat sa walang divorce ko siya pinakasalan!

"You know what will happen if we are d-divorced." I tried again. I don't know if it will work again but hopefully? Kahit para ulit sa kompanya? Hindi ba pwede?

"I don't need your damn share, Ynessa! Pull out and just give me the divorce that I want." I'm glad that we are in a VIP room. No other people will hear how desperate he is to get me out of his life. Sa limang taon wala ba talaga? Ni katiting na pagmamahal wala man lang nabuo? Kasi ako mas lalong lumalim, e. Why is it not fair?

"What if I'm pregnant?" bahagya siyang natigilan sa sinabi ko. Ngayon wala na akong hinihiling pa kundi ang may mabuong bata sa sinapupunan ko.

"You can't be. You're on your shots, Ynessa." he said firmly.

"I stopped it." his eyes are now bloodshot.

"I can support the child but I can't be your husband." I closed my eyes. Sobrang sakit marinig ang ganung mga salita galing sakanya.

"Give me reason, Tage. Because I won't fucking accept just unhappy marriage. Nakaya mo nga ng ilang taon. Five years! We made it to five years, why now?"

"I want to marry, Ardelle. The woman I truly love." the tears that I've been holding cascade. I thought she's out of the picture already. Siya pa rin ba? Five years in a marriage and he still think of that woman? Kahit pala mahabang panahon na ang nakalipas ay hindi pa rin nagbago ang nararamdaman niya para sa babaeng 'yon.

"Are you still seeing her?" and fucking her? I want to add that but refrain from doing so. Kaya hindi niya mabigyan ng pagkakataon ang pagsasamang 'to dahil sa babaeng 'yon? Nakatali pa rin pala siya sa babaeng iyon.

"Are you cheating on me?"

"It's me who cheated on her. It was her that I promised marriage but you whom I married."

"You can't marry her. Walang hiwalayang magaganap, Tage! Mananatili tayong kasal!" I said and stand up. Galit na itinapon ko ang table napkin sa mesa.

"Talk to your lawyer and we'll divorce, Ynessa! Your selfishness won't work this time!" I glared at him.

"Let's see how will this selfishness save this damn marriage. It's you who's not giving this a chance! You and Ardelle won't happen. Hangga't nabubuhay ako! I don't care if you fuck her but you will remain married to me. Not to Ardelle or any damn woman, Del Prado!" I said in between anger and tears.

"And keep that bitch out of my sight because the moment my eyes laid to her, I cannot promise you her safety. Baka sa harapan mo mismo mapatay ko ang babae mo. That's how much I love you, Tage Lasten and I want this kind of love to mark on you."

Ruselle Ynessa Lambert-Del Prado is selfish. Hindi ako magiging ako kung hindi ako madamot.

In this lifetime, I will remain his wife.