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✧┊Ch.16: Who He Really Is; There Will Always Be A Yin And Yang

(Art not mine!)
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   With an imaginary gavel yet to slam down on his neck and seal his fate, Boyfriend sighs and brings the truth back to the light of the present. Although he feared of what his best friend Pico and his lover Y/N L/N might think of him, being blind to the truth won't make anything better.

   If they truly love you, they'll accept you for who you are. Is what Boyfriend hopes, but at the same time does not. Pico and Y/N shall decide whether he is guilty or not guilty of being a terrible, terrible person.

   Boyfriend took one last breath in, and out before his confession. Pico only blinked in impatience, while Y/N sharply exhaled and gulped, her hands' grip on the couch she sat on growing tighter. Y/N believed in Boyfriend, even if he had done bad things in the past. He had learned from his mistakes and feels bad that he had done them, but...

  'One of his biggest mistakes he's making at the moment...' Y/N thought to herself as she waited for Boyfriend to make his testimony of his past relationships. 'Is that he can't forgive himself. I know I've made some bad things in the past, but I was able to recover from it. Would he be able to as well...?'

  "...Back in first year in middle school, Girlfriend and I met for the first time," Y/N jerked her eyes up to Boyfriend's eyes. They were filled with coldness and guilt; Only negative emotions could be seen through his face, which were sharpened with his hardy eyebrows that refused to worry.

  "At the moment, I was dating Odette, my Ex-Girlfriend who for some reason, keeps harassing you, Y/N. It's cruel to say this, but I don't think she has matured since we've stopped dating..." He shook his head in remorse for Odette. "I was only with Odette because... She had offered a large sum of money to support my career and I. I only used that money to buy myself food and for personal things, but to think I'd be swayed by a simple sum of $400k... I was a f*ckin', greedy idiot back then."

  "Don't say that about yourself Oto," Y/N cut in, trying to cheer him up with a sympathetic, but weak smile. "You were only 12 or 13 at the time, you were very young."

  Boyfriend only looked away in response; perhaps in guilt. "That doesn't excuse myself. I knew that I was taking advantage of her back then, and now she's stuck to this sick fantasy that I would eventually love her back... It's my fault for igniting that."

  Pico scoffed, shaking his head with angered, raised eyebrow. Boyfriend only stared at him back with the same, unforgiving gaze from before. "You're seriously going to be that hard on yourself?" He flashed a somewhat angered smirk at him. "Don't be f*cking stupid. Your age DOES excuse you doing stupid shit. Y'know that oldbag saying that's like: ''With age comes wisdom'' or whatever? Trust me you slushie-haired bastard, it's true. I was dumb as hell when I was younger, and I could barely process what was going when I killed that alien bitch."

  Boyfriend shook his head, his eyes sharper this time. "But still, I knew what I was doing was deliberately wrong, yet I still I did it! I took advantage of her money and status and-"

  "And you feel bad about doing that, don't you?!" Boyfriend looked towards Y/N in surprise as she interjected. Her eyes were angered by Boyfriend's self-deprecation; He was almost mesmerized by her eyes burning like the bright, scorching, sun as they stared each other. "That shows that you matured, and you feel bad for Odette, even if she was a total jerk to me and you!"

   He did not respond. He only kept staring at her with a shocked poker-face, his mouth only slightly open. His mind must have been a mess after that.

  "Oto, you're the nicest guy with biological blue hair I've ever met," Y/N kept her hard gaze on him, even if she began to tear up from it for reasons unknown to her. "You just need to accept that it's okay to make mistakes! Failure doesn't mean death-!"