Within the walls

11

Nyx's pov

When I returned to the camp I was immediately greated by Annie.

"Welcome back, I got that thing of Marco's you wanted. I had to search the whole of Trost to find the thing." Annie said.

I smiled, she had the spare gear.

"Thanks Annie, it means a lot to me. " I said.

"I'm gonna get rid of mine after all the shit I found on his." Annie said.

She wants to use her own gear to carry out the kills and then use Marco's if they call for an inspection. That's smart.

"I'm going out to talk to Marco again early this morning at around 1:30 to about 1:34 if you want me to throw it out for you." I said.

"I'd appreciate that, now Jeans been looking for you so you should go." Annie said nodding to show she knew what I ment.

"I'll see you later then." I said before leaving to find Jean.

When I found Jean he was sat with Sasha and Connie.

"Annie said you wanted to talk to me Jean." I said drawing their attention.

"Jesus Nyx you look rough." Connie said.

"Annie said you weren't sleeping or leaving your bed or doing much of anything." Jean said. "I was worried about you."

"I'll be fine, eventually." I said. "Besides I didn't just stay in bed, I went out and found someone to set up an official grave for Marco. I couldn't bare the thought of him not having anything."

"Seriously? Where is it?" Sasha asked.

"It's not much but... here." I said before handing over a slip of paper with a location of an official grave I had had made.

"You went and got him a grave?" Jean asked.

"Of course, I would have done the same for you or Krista or Annie." I said.

"Nyx, was Annie telling the truth? Are- were you in love with Marco? Is that the reason you've been so out of it?" Jean asked.

I froze for a second, I didn't think anyone would say anything about it to my face. I looked down at my feet, lying to Jean was just as hard as lying to Reiner and the warriors.

"I was, I still am, I can't let him go, I don't think I ever will. I love him and I didn't say anything and now he's gone and never coming back." I said as I forced myself to cry. "Sorry, I should go."

Jean's pov

I watched Nyx run away in tears. Marco was one lucky bastard to have someone like Nyx in love with him.

"Nice going Jean, you've got her crying again." Connie said.

"I feel bad for her, Nyx has always been so bright and happy and ever since Marco died she's just been a shell." Sasha said.

"Jean, can't we just tell her Marco loved her back to cheer her up a bit?" Connie asked.

"Marco did love her back, he was going to ask her to go to the M.Ps with him." I replied.

"Then why don't you tell her? Everyone just wants her to be happy again." Sasha said.

"I asked a nurse yesterday if telling her that would help her and she said that would just make it worse. She said that it would just get her thinking about what ifs." I said. "The best thing we can do for her is give her time and space."

"This sucks man, there's really nothing we can do for her?" Connie asked.

"There isn't, we just have to hope that she'll cheer up a bit, not that there's anything to cheer up about." I said.

"That's our new mission, cheer up Nyx!" Sasha declared.

"Yeah!" Connie agreed.