Splendiferous Crescent

KABANATA 40

Being contented with what you currently have is a biggest flex for me. And these, these things that are happening to my life right now is enough to make me feel the contentment I've been longing for since then.

Despite of the undesirable things I have done in my whole life, I still got this kind of blessing. I've been showered with numerous good things that are more than what I asked for.

I may sometimes hate my life. Some of us even wish for our death so we could finally turn our back on our problems. I sometimes wish to be somebody who doesn't have this kind of life. A life that's chaotic. However, I am thankful that the Creator didn't gave me a favor to have that wish. I thanked Him that he didn't turned me into somebody because if that happened, I couldn't have all of these.

I learned, indeed. I learned to be contented for what I am. I learned to love myself and accept all the things that has been given to me… even if that's awful because I know, every suffering will always be paid off. The suffering phase of every person will always have an end.

We're just running in the same cycle. We live in the same circle. We live and experience every stages. Victory, happiness, suffering, sadness. After that, we'll run again in the circle and will experience all the stages again. The only difference is… we do not experience it on the same time.

There are times that someone's celebrating for their achievement and the other one is on the corner of their dark room and suffering, facing all of its problem, thinking of the things that just makes them feel bad and make their mind chaotic even more.

"I love you, Selene," Pierce whispered on my ear. His breath even entered my ear, making me feel the tickling sensation.

Katatapos lang ng misang dinaluhan namin at ngayon ay palabas na kami sa simbahan. May mga taong pang nakatingin sa direksyon namin at walang hiyang tiningnan si Pierce galing paa hanggang ulo. May ilan pang halos tumulo ang laway katitingin sa kaniya.

Of course. Who wouldn't? Kahit ako nga na mismong kasama niya palagi ay hindi rin maiwasan na matulala minsan kapag  nakikita ko siya. Lalo na kapag tinititigan ko ang berde niyang mata. Though we have the same green eye, we do not have the same shade of green. Emeral green 'yong sa kaniya tapos ang sa akin ay jade.

"I love you," I replied with equal amount of sincerity.

Hindi siya nakuntento sa magkahawak naming kamay. Nilipat niya ang kaniyang kamay sa baywang ko at mas hinapit pa ako palapit sa kaniya kahit na sobrang lapit na namin sa isa't isa kanina.

I heard gasps from people near us. Pero si Pierce ay parang walang pakialam at pasimple lang na tinahak ang daan papunta sa sasakyan niya. Pinagbuksan niya ako ng pinto bago umikot para makapwesto na sa driver's seat.

Since his car is heavily tinted, nagkaroon ako ng chance na tingnan ang reaksyon ng iilang taong nakatingin sa kaniya. May ilan pang nakasimangot. Ang iba naman ay nakataas ang kilay habang pinagmamasdan pa rin si Pierce na naglalakad papunta sa pintuan ng driver's seat para makapasok na.

Alam kong gwapo talaga siya at hindi maiiwasang may tumingin sa kaniya kahit saang lugar kami magpunta. Kaya lang, medyo naiinis ako. Ewan ko ba. Hindi naman ako ganito dati.

I sometimes get annoyed easily. Minsan, kahit na gwapong-gwapo na ako kay Pierce, hindi ko pa rin maiwasang hindi mairita sa kaniya kahit wala naman siyang ginagawa. Same with the things I usually see, bigla ko na lang gustong ihagis.

"Engineer, ano pong gusto niyong lunch? Ipapahatid daw ni sir Helios dito," sabi ng sekretarya ni Kuya pagkatapos ko siyang papasukin.

I tilted my head to the right and think about a good meal to have for my lunch.