The Mafia Queen

Chapter 42

They say the worst type of crying is the silent one.

The one when everyone is asleep.

The one when you feel it in your throat, and your eyes become blurry from the tears.

The one where you just want to scream.

The one where you have to hold your breath and grab your stomach to keep quiet.

The one where you can't breathe anymore.

The water poured over my head soaking the clothes that I still had on. I didn't have the energy to take them off. My eyes were red from the water, I couldn't move, I couldn't say anything, all I could do was look. I heard the door open from my room. 

"Annika?" I heard Matvey's voice. He opened the shower door to see his daughter on the floor pale as snow, I didn't look up.

"Annika, medovyy." He turned my face to look at him, all my emotions came forward. (Honey)

I couldn't hold it back no matter how much I tried. I tried to catch my breath as the tears fell down my face. He came into the shower and wrapped his arms around me.

"I didn't get to say a proper bye. I didn't know what was going on, she closed the door in my face. She died and left me. She left me in this awful world alone. She trusted him and he broke it. She left me to deal with bitch of a step-sister. I'm sick of feeling like I'm not good enough."

"Don't ever say you're not good enough. If that person can't see how amazing you are, then they're the ones not good enough for you." He lifted my chin so I was looking at him.

"Jack Throne once said those we love never truly leave us. There are things that death cannot touch. I miss your mom every day but she will always be with us and she only left you because she knew that she grew to be the strongest woman, who can overcome anything on her own. Besides you are not alone you have me and your brothers, we will always be there for you. Now let's get you warmed up." He got out of the shower and came back with a towel, turning off the shower he wrapped the towel around me then lifted me up carrying me to my bed.

"I'll get Karina to help you out your clothes." Nodding, he walked out of the room. 

A few minutes later Karina ran into the room pulling me into a hug. She went into my closet and came out with a sweatshirt and sweatpants.

She helped me out of my clothes into the dry ones. She sat beside me.

"He broke up with you, didn't he?" I slowly nodded. 

"His lost." She looked around not knowing what to say. Her face lit up and turned back to me.

"Did you hear Anastasia is pregnant?" My head whipped around to her.

"Really?" She nodded.

"And she doesn't know who the father is she had sex with over thirty men that week." I laughed at the thought of Aesthetic with a baby bump.

"I made you laugh" She smiled at herself.

"Someone who values you wouldn't ever put themselves in a position to lose you. Now you look like shit, get some rest and if it makes you feel any better I haven't seen Luka since yesterday. Maybe he went and killed himself because he realized he made the most beautiful girl walk out of his life." She shrugged, hugging me one last time as she walked out of the room, closing the door. Sighing I collapsed on the bed staring at the ceiling and darkness came.

The next day I was in the meeting room helping Matvey with some papers. We never talked about yesterday and I would like to keep it like that. I've never cried before, not even when she died, I just didn't have the strength.

"The big party is almost here, every year we have this big party at the biggest club in Russia which is obviously owned by us. It's known to be the biggest party of the year. Everyone looks forward to it, which means we have to have the best dresses. I got the best clothes designer in the country. She will be at the house tomorrow, is that okay?" I stared at her for a few seconds.

"Yeah." She squealed and wrapped me in a hug before she went back in Waylan's lap. Shaking my head I continued with the papers on the table.

The door swung open, everyone looked up but me. I knew who it was already. I could smell his cologne from a mile away.

"Luka, happy you could join us after disappearing for a whole day," Matvey said.

I just had to clear my head."

"Who's the chick?" Alexi pointed out that caught my attention. I turned around to see his arm around a girl's waist. She was blonde, makeup caked on her face, she had on a tight dress that was above her knees with high heels.

"This chick is my girlfriend." I felt Karina sit down in the seat beside me.

"Don't worry she got the Omerta and she's my girlfriend so she has access to the restricted floors." Matvey nodded and turned back to his papers. The girl came up to the table with a big smile plastered on her face.

"Hi, I'm chloeinna."

"Chloe what?" Lev asked.

"Chloeinna." She smiled at him. We all stared at her. 

"Chlorine?" Karina asked. She looked at Karina as her smile fell off her face but she quickly replaced it again.

"No, Chloeinna has in Chloe and inna." She said to us trying to break it down.

"Okay, so chlorine," I said.

"Chloeinna." She calmly screamed at us. I could see her getting frustrated with us.

"That's what she said, Chlorine." Karina defended me.

"NO, CHLOEINNA." She lost her cool and screamed at us.

"Okay, chlorine," Karina said, making me laugh.

"Ignore them" Luka walked up to her wrapping his arm around her waist without looking at me.

"This is Annika and this is Karina. Those four in the back are Alexi, Nikolai, Lev, and Waylan. That over there is Michail now that formalities are down let's get to work."