Grief Of The Arts

GOTA: 09

Napa titig naman ako sa kaniya bigla. When he met me? Kung bibilangin, halos nakaraang buwan lang 'yon.

"Last month lang?" Tanong ko sa kaniya. Gusto kong maging malinaw.

"No. Exactly 1 year ago." Saad niya kaya napatingin ako sa kanya ng nanlalaki ang mata. Last year?

"What? Hindi ka naman pamilyar sa'kin. Hindi rin naman kita naging kaibigan dati 'no? Malabo rin kitang maging kaklase. Wala rin naman akong matandaan na nakita na talaga kita last year." Mahabang litanya ko.

Ang honest ko masyado. Habang itong katabi ko tinatawanan lang ako. Nakaka frustrate siya pero parang kinikilig lang ako.

"No." Sagot niya at tumawa ulit.

Happy pill ba ako ng lalaking 'to? Wala kaming pagkikita na hindi niya ako tinatawanan. Nakaka inis na nakaka-kilig.

"So ano nga?" Pangungulit ko sakanya.

Gusto kong malaman kung saan exactly yung place. Hindi talaga ako matatahimik kung hindi niya sasabihin sa'kin.

"On your Kuya Andrew's debut." Saad niya at ngumiti tsaka tumingala. Parang inaalala ang mga araw na 'yon.

"I see you here in the swing swaying your feet. You look so lonely that time. Para ka ngang batang nawala no'n." Dugtong niya at tumawa ulit.

Pasalamat siya sexy siya tumawa kung 'di babatukan ko talaga siya. Sabihan ba naman akong mukhang batang nawawala?

"I ask my friend if they know you and they answered 'no'. So I asked Andrew if he know you and what's your name. I am hoping that he know you that time." He said, smiling a little.

So he doesn't have a clue na kapatid ako ng tropa niya? Sabagay. Kuya Andrew and I are not that look alike. Even my lost twin. Ako lang daw talaga ang naiiba.

"And he says that he's your Kuya so I back out."

Back out? But why? Parang kapatid lang naman.

"You look so baby that time. You're cute and your cheeks looks swollen. I even thought that you're a ten year old girl because of your height. But your height changed now." He said, smirking.

I punched his biceps. Lagi niya na lang napapansin 'yung height ko kahit wala akong ginagawa sa height niya. Hindi na lang kasi mag-donate ng katangkaran.

"So baby and innocent. I really thought that I broke my promise to myself that I will never like a girl who's five years younger than me. We're not lying when we say you have this baby face because it's true. Until now. Then when I know your age. I was shock at first, I can't process it. I don't even want to believe your Kuya when he said that you were sixteen because you look like you're not." Mahaba niyang litanya.

He's honest in the part that I have a baby face. Maliit kasi ang muka ko at malaki ang pisngi, lalo na nung baby but puberty hit me that hard. Nagbago talaga yung mukha ko ngayon. I have thick eye brows and lashes. I have this hazel brown eyes at my blonde hair. Small but pointed nose and my lips are like a thin line.

I continue scrolling on his fb at ng mainip ay inilipat ko iyon sa IG. I also check his profile at na shock ako ng makitang may 10k followers siya! Gano'n ba siya ka-pogi? His bio is 'Un Futuro Artista| El Buen Tiempo'. Huh? What does that mean?

 He have 157 following. Ang konti naman sa 10k followers. He have this many followers but he don't have any posts. My days lang. Naka high lights. Hindi ko na 'yon tinignan at chineck nalang ang following niya. Mga models. Halos puro babae kaya cinancel ko na dahil nati trigger ako. Baka iunfollow ko lahat 'yon sa sobrang inis kahit wala akong karapatan.