Grief Of The Arts

GOTA: 45

"Ang chaka mong babae ka! Buti wala pa 'yung may ari! French french daw 'yun! Galing ding Toronto!" Sigaw sa akin ni Ate Kris nong nasa entrance.

"Ang ingay mo." I said while walking.

Nasa kaliwang kamay ko 'yung coat kong puti habang nasa kabilang kamay ko 'yung cellphone ko.

Yung ibang doctor na nakakasalubong ko ay ngumingiti at kumakaway sa'kin.

"Bakit kumakaway 'yan?" Tanong sa akin ni Ate Kris.

I didn't answer her instead dumiretso ako sa garden ng ospital.

"Let us all welcome, the new owner of Gutierez Hospital, Doctora Shienny Khim Mendez!" Sigaw ng isang Doctor.

"What the fuck?" I heard Ate Kris cursed, I just laughed at her. "Gagi sorry! 'Wag mo akong tatanggalin Doc! Hindi na mauulit!" Sigaw niya sa akin.

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"Congrats Doctora! It's a twin of boys!" Bati sa akin ng Ob-gyne ko.

Wala akong kasama ngayon dahil gusto ko munang kumpirmahin kung buntis ba talaga ako. At dahil sa sobrang tamad ko ay sa 4th month na ako nakabisita.

Pansin din kasi ng pamilya ko ang pagtaba ko bigla. Yung cravings ko tuwing three AM. Alam kong madami silang tanong pero hindi nila sinasabi.

Kahit si Jace ay alam 'kong pinipigilan lang ang sarili niya. Gusto niya na ngang doon ako sa condo niya tumira pero tinatanggihan ko lang.

"Love? Shine? Anong oras ka uuwi?" Tanong niya sa call.

"Pauwi na ako. Nagda drive na." I said while looking at the road.

It's his birthday, supposedly ay aalis kami pero sinabi kong may kailangan akong asikasuhin sa ospital. Alam kong nagtatampo siya sa akin kasi every time na aayin niya ako sa date ay nasasaktong check up ko naman.

"Ingat sa pagda-drive. Hintayin kita." He said.

He's so cold this past few weeks. Ewan ko dito sa lalaking 'to, dinaig pa ang mood swings ko.

Pagdating sa bahay ay madilim na at wala pang nakabukas na ilaw. Akala ko ba hihintayin ako non?

"May tao?" Tanong ko. Nang masiguradong wala ay pumunta ako sa switch ng ilaw habang kumakanta.

"I'll hold the door, please come in and just sit here for a while. This is my, way of telling you I need you in my life." I sang.

"It's so cold without your touch, I've been dreaming way too much. Can we just, turn this into reality?"

Gusto kong sumigaw ng may biglang dumugtong sa kanta ko at bumukas ang ilaw.

I saw my family and same as Jace. Pagtalikod ko ay nakita ko siya, kneeling one of his knee.

"Love, Shine ko. I know I do such things that hurt you so much before. I really thought I have illness, so I plan of letting you go in the way of hurting you. And I succeed, the moment you leave me, was the moment my life seems not complete." He said.

"I'm sorry for hurting you multiple times but I am not sorry for chasing you again. I may sound cheesy but I don't care as long as it's you. My artist, my model, my doctor, Shienny Khim Mendez, are you willing to change your surname with mine?" He asked me, I was about to answer when he spoke again. "No, you should." Parang batang saad niya.