The Elevator

The Point Of No Return

After a long night speaking with Jared, listening to my wolf beg and plead for me to be with her mate. I couldn't help but let her whimpers and cries fall on my death ears. I knew it was hard for her to admit that she had failed to convince me to give Jacob a chance but everything happens for a reason. 

Me returning to the pack wasn't about me finding happiness with Jacob or even reconnecting with my family. It was about me helping the pack listen to the truth, making things right, challenging Jacob to be accountable for his actions. So many lies and conspiracies ran through this pack and all of that needed to be set free. 

I had lived a happy life without my wolf and if she was to disappear I can't imagine my life being any different. My heart ached for my wolf out of sympathy for it wasn't her fault yet she was being punished. The human in me just could not forgive Jacob for his sins. His sins could have been rectified years ago, yet he caused me and everyone in this pack some type of pain. 

My heart would never be able to look at him, without seeing what he did with my twin sister. No matter what he says, it was his decision to engage with that relationship. No one forced his hand chose her over me. He didn't to accept that his decisions and choices have consequences. Years ago, maybe it was fate for us to be together but we were different people now. Rather than growing together, we grew separately. Who knows what life would have been if he had listened to the Goddess rather than listening to rumours. 

I couldn't solely blame it on Jacob because I should have spoken up sooner. I should have requested an inquiry into my sisters actions, but I was scared. Scared that my sister would have framed me more than she already had done. My gut instinct at the time was to run and because of how my mother reacted I could see that my gut instinct was right. My mother would have never let Leanne take the fall, she would protect her like a good mother would. It was a shame she forgot she had another daughter.

The Elder's would be arriving soon and I knew I needed to find Jacob and talk to him before they arrived. I wouldn't let him find out my decision in front of others. I didn't have to guess where he was, for I knew where he lingered on his own, escaping the whispers and looks of disgust from pack members. 

I scurried along the outskirts of the pack and found him at the place where our demise began. There is the clearing where the grass was the greenest and the flowers were blooming, he sat on the ground. His head laying on his knees as his fingers traced through the forest floor. His shoulders were hunched over in defeat. I couldn't see his face but I could clearly see that he was caught up in his wolf's pain. 

I quietly stepped through the clearing and sat down next to him. The sun was shining, the sky was clear. It was a perfect day with the light breeze that whispered through the tree's, the rustling of leafs. I could hear his faint breathing and the heat radiate off his body as his hair flew between the light breeze. 

"Why are you here?" Jacob whispered into his knees. 

"I could ask you the same thing." I sighed. 

"I come here a lot. I always have since you left." Jacob stated. "This was the beginning of the end."

"Jacob, we never even had a beginning for us to end." I replied. 

He let out a maniacal laugh, it was filled with pain and agony. The part of me that cared was strangling me. The guilt of my decision was hitting me. Even though I had nothing to feel guilty for. My decisions were a reaction of his choices. I couldn't help but feel pain for the wolf inside of him.

"I suppose your right." He sighed. 

The silence was excruciatingly painful. I knew that I didn't have to tell him what my decision was for he could already sense it. I didn't know if it was my behaviour towards him or whether his wolf had told him what was going to happen. Either way, no matter how much I acted like I didn't care or was heartless. Deep down I cared.