Creativity Must Be Present {Oneshots for The Boiz(tm)}

Secret Snuggles from a Man Built Like Burnt Toast

Dabi (Touya Todoroki) x Trans! Chubby! Male Reader

[Requested from starlight-fantasies! I hope you thoroughly enjoy~!]

   Bad days; everyone has them, right? Well, yeah. They're just unavoidable sometimes. In your case, this bad day was more like a bad few weeks, that would lead into a bad month come tomorrow. You didn't know what was wrong. You've been sitting pretty in the homely Villain hideout. You've only been out a few times, but every time you come home feeling a little worse than you were before you left. A Part of you, however, did know the answer, scratching at the back of your mind, but you continuously chose to ignore it. At least, around the others. 

   You were doing a pretty good job of it. Hiding how you felt. You get used to it after a while, you supposed. Though, you did feel guilty brushing off Dabi's (garbage) attempts at showing his concern. He was starting to catch on and that was the last thing you wanted. You never want anyone to be worried about you — let alone look at you.

   Oh...

   Oh...

   That was it. The thoughts clawing at the back of your head finally broke through the barrier of safe ignorance; the burst felt like a mental dam, flooding your thoughts with unending tidal waves of insecurities and rotted self-hatred you thought you had dealt with way back when. Telling you you were gross, that you were a disgusting pig that thought you were a man. Constantly reminding you ever few seconds that you weren't a "real man," or that you were "too fat to be loved."  You felt your hands begin to tremble as your sight went blurry and flat at the same time. Your breath picked up and your chest began to ache, your head felt like someone was bashing into your skull agonizingly slowly with a sledgehammer. You almost thought you were suffocating - dying - right there, in front of everyone to see. You silently excused yourself to a back room, ignoring the quiet call from Kurogiri as you rushed briskly past the bar counter and disappeared to a different room somewhere.

   Touya smacked his hands against the bar to stop himself from running into it, asking which way you had gone without saying a word.
 

 "Left," he said, nodding him off to follow you. As he dashed down the hall, he opened every door, only taking a short peek to see if you were inside. It wasn't until he opened the second room from the last that he found you, closed in on yourself, clutching your stomach tight and binder still on under one of his dark colored shirts. He walked in, his racing heartbeat coming to a slow as he gently closed the door behind him, approaching the bed you had curled up on.
   His expression was a painful combination of worry, sadness, and regret as he set a hand atop your exposed cheek, soon feeling the tears that were trailing down your face. 
   "Are you alright.., (Y/n)?" He asked, subconsciously chewing the inside of his cheek at his slight hesitance; he never thought he was good at comforting people, but you were the one who helped him learn through comforting him every time he felt the guilt of leaving his brothers and sister with him wash over him. Now, it was his turn to buck up and help you.

   You couldn't feel the motivation to even open your mouth. Your jaw felt nailed shut as you continued to sob, the voices in your head never-ending.
   Touya was swift to gather you in his arms, you felt the comforting extra warmth he emits as someone with a fire-related Quirk, trying to sniffle your emotions back inside so he wouldn't have to deal with them. Of course, him being your boyfriend for a fairly long time now, knew what you were trying to do and just squeezed you tighter, nuzzling his face in the crook of your neck with an apologetic expression that you couldn't see, but feel as the tension of his furrowed brows tightened against your skin.
   You wanted to accept the comfort; you wanted to turn around and hold him just as tightly as he let you cry into his chest, but your mind wouldn't let you. The deepest crevices of your brain opened like the fabled pits of hell, unleashing a monster so vile that you wished right now you were decked out in metaphorical armor. Its voice was ugly and wretched, garbled and low as it spoke to you.
   "You know he's disgusted with the way you look. How could he not be? He's only holding you like this out of pity. He's disgusted, revolted."
   Another sob ripped from your throat, trying to squirm out of your lover's grasp without making that sickening feeling in your gut any worse.
   "Why would he care for you? You're a woman thinking you're a man — not to mention an ugly one." Its words were scarring, insults like this always stuck with you after every episode. It laughed, cackling at you and it wouldn't stop. You just wanted it to stop. Stop.

   "(Y/n), I love you so much." You opened your bloodshot (e/c) eyes, seeing black spots clear up from screwing them shut so harshly. He could feel you trying to push away, only telling him more of what was wrong.
   Not minding at all that you wouldn't respond yet, he kept going:
   "You know more than anyone that I, of all people, don't give a flying fuck what you look like," he pressed his lips gently to your neck for a moment. "I fell in love with you because you didn't care what I looked like. You never insulted me or called me names like everyone else — hell, you even told them off and apologized on behalf of those who did.
   The tears didn't stop, but the voice did. It shrunk away and you were suddenly overwhelmed by the exhaustion. You finally caved in, twisting yourself in his warm arms to face him. He pressed a thumb to your cheek, wiping the tears away on your left cheek, then curling his pointer finger and using the back of it to wipe the rest of them away on the other side.
   "I love you, so fucking much, my handsome man." Touya planted a kiss on your forehead, squeezing your body closer to his, and this time you returned the embrace.
   "Thank you..."
   "Of course, Baby. I'm always here whenever you need me. Don't forget that."

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