Letters to You

~Truth~

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to find love

Truth is I tend to wonder about a lot of things

Like why some people choose to hide the truth behind little white lies

Well that was until I started doing the same

Truth is I got addicted to the lies

Truth is I loved how it felt to say what I thought even If none of it was true

Truth is I became someone who lied often, hell it sort of became compulsive

Truth is I only started to lie because I realized people barely listen when I talk

Truth is I only did it to get away from my reality, not realizing it affected more than just my relationship with others but my relationship with myself

Truth is the more I Lied the less I know who I am

Truth is ive gotten so comfortable with lies I forgot the truth, now im stuck with saying useless lies that have no meaning

Truth is... I always felt jealous of my siblings... My sister who was strong and upright and it was almost always impossible to get close to her because she always made me feel small.. My brother was distant almost like he never existed..

Truth is.. Sometimes i dont even feel like myself...as though all I say and know is just another lie fabricated to make sure I didnt break from the truth..

Truth is I lie to escape reality, a world so scary that I cant even begin to think of where I would end up...

Truth is.. I always hated how I lacked control... So now I lie and pretend like I am..

Truth is... I dont know whats real and whats fake anymore...