Letters to You

~Dear Elizabeth~

Dear Elizabeth, 

How are you doing today? Have you managed to finally find your favorite game?

In fact, Is Elizabeth still your name

Or is it something else, maybe something shorter, Lizzy? 

do you mind if I call you that?

Dear Elizabeth Oh do I wonder how you've been

are you happy up in the highest heavens?

Oh how I wish you could have grown to the age of seven, eleven 

and maybe even grown old enough to know that Earth too has its own form of heaven

In fact, I wish you could have met me or I have met you

I hope you're proud of me

Dear Elizabeth

Do I disappoint you? am I not what you expected me to be?

When you left this earth, were you proud that I made it?

Dear Elizabeth 

Why was it me? 

Why couldn't it have been you 

Dear Elizabeth 

I miss you even If I never have met you

I hope that you are happy in the heavens above

Are you a boy or a girl Dear Elizabeth?..

What did you turn out to be?

I Love you, Dear Elizabeth

I hope that despite not seeing the world with your own two eyes

You at least get to see it through me

Dear Elizabeth, Are you doing well?

I wonder have you ever wanted to meet me?

Dear Elizabeth 

Do you Hate me?...

I do

I hate myself so much

I hate myself so much I wish I could leave this world and be with you

Dear Elizabeth

I can't wait to meet you

A/N: This chapter is dedicated to Elizabeth, My unofficial best friend and older sibling, They died before they were born and even before my parents had me, we never knew the gender but my sister wanted it to be a girl and if it was they would have named her Elizabeth, Unfortunately, that name never came to be and technically I wouldn't be here if it weren't for that...so If you can see this Elizabeth, Thank you and I love you so much..May you rest in peace