Letters to You

~Acceptance~

I can't help but wonder why it took me so long

so long to admit I miss you

so long to admit that despite everything I still don't hate you

I just hate the memories

Why did it take a shared laugh across the room

a few caught and shared gazes

for me to find acceptance in the fact that no matter how much I hate you

I can't help but miss it

Can't help but miss you

yet, even so, I wish to bury my thoughts underground

yet all It does is find another way to come out

so instead, I chose to accept it

not just the fact I don't hate you, I mean of course I don't

in fact..im glad I can now say I love you

I loved you, even if you never loved me

I loved you along with every part of you that I once wished to pursue

I found acceptance in the racing heart of mine that always found space for you

because no matter what

I love you, I love you so much it pains me

after all I not only fell for you but for the way you made me feel

and no matter how much I wish to deny it

It was real, You were real

You made Me feel Real

and I accept that now, even If no one else does

I am okay with us 

I am okay with You

because I loved you , even if you never loved me too