Falling apart

Chapter 2

Elle's POV:
Im packing my clothes kasi uuwi na kami pa manila . Natawagan ko na din si Dad , updated him na pauwi na kami . I was listening to music when I  heard a knock pinag buksan ni Ayisha and it's Tita Dawn .
"Girls done packing ?" She asked and we nod .
"Ayisha can you get your things and move it to the car na nandun na ang Papa mo , I just have to talk to Elle really quick ." Tita said with serious tone. I look at Tita then to Ayisha , I can see that she's worried . I gave her a smile and nod . She sighed and get her bag and headed out . I sat on my bed and Tita Dawn is on Ayisha's . I put my headphone down and put my attention to Tita.
"Tito told you didnt he ?" I asked. She held my hand .
"He did. But thats not what I came here for ." She said."I saw you kanina while you look at Kuya(Jacobo) and Ayisha . You're crying but why ? I thought this weekend getaway will take your mind out of the things in manila ." She said I just smiled .
"I thought so Tita,  But it didn't. What you saw this afternoon . It's just that I miss tine . I try to take my mind away from her but I cant she's my twin and there's this connection between us . When she got into a coma parang nanghina din ako . Even if Ayisha is always there for me , dont get me wrong tita I appreciate it so much di ko alam kung nandito parin ako hanggang ngayon if I dont have her company . Pero iba pa rin yung pakiramdam pag si tine . Yes I treated them equally but my relationship with both girls are too different from each other . Ayisha she's the bestest friend I could ever ask for and Tine she's just a big part of me mag kasama kami halos sa lahat and then  one accident then boom. Im alone ." I said .
"I understand that Elle pero hindi naman sana pero how if she wont make it ." I look at her and that's when the tears starts to fall I bow my head down and sob.
"Hindi ko alam tita , di ko kakayanin . Ngayon palang na nag aagaw buhay sya because of makes me feel so guilty pano pa kaya kung mawala sya maybe I'll lose it.  I'll lose my sanity. Hindi ko ma imagine ang nararamdaman ni  Mama ngayon , Pati ni Daddy . Kung meron lang akong magagawa para mabuhay si kambal gagawin ko ang lahat . Kahit ibuwis ko pa ang buhay ko para sa kanya kung sakanya sasaya si Mama gagawin ko !" I cried and I felt her warm embrace and that made me cry harder .
"Just pray sweetheart . Prayers will be answered just believe in God , believe in your sister she'll make it ." She said pull out from our hug then wipe my tears and smiled . Smile for her and regulate my breathing .
"I always believe in him and my sister ." I said , She stood up and fix some of my things.
"Ito na ba lahat ? Make sure wala kang naiwan ha." She said , I nodded and help her with my bags . We left the hotel and the trip was quiet cause its night.  I plug my headphone , play soft music and close my eyes . Since its only me , ayisha and jacobo tag iisa kaming line ng upuan . Pangalawa sa unahan ang pwesto ko at humiga na ng maayos and soon enough I drifted to sleep .

Few hours later Tita Dawn wake me up because Im home . Ayisha is also awake . I bid goodbyes to them and dumiretso sa loob ng bahay . I was shock when I saw the leaving room there are bottles of beer and bottles of wine na nililigpit ni manang.
"Manang ano pong nangyari ?"
"Nako Elle ikaw na pala yan ! , Ang  Daddy mo kasi galit na umuwi di naman sinabi kung bakit sa Mama mo ." Manang said . No this is not what Im thinking , it cant be !, I thought Tito Anton just told about it to Tita Dawn not to Dad . I know If I tell him about it this will happen.
"Nasan po sila ?" I asked . Manang was about to answer when Mama did.
"Aba at umuwi ka pa ! Manang excuse us !" Mama said and walk towards us .
"Maam-" pagtatanggol ni manang sakin .
"Manang leave this to me ."Mama said sternly.  I look at manang and nod. Nang maka layo na si  manang ay isang malakas ang natanggap ko . No not Mama knowing about it .
"Ano bang drama mo ha ?!! Ano nanamang ka artehan ang sinabi mo sa Tito at Tita mo ha ?!! Alam mo kulang pa yang pinaparamdam ko sayo ehh !! Kulang pa yan kumpara sa nararamdaman ng kapatid mo ngayon !! Pasalamat ka nga at hindi ko pinagbabawalan ang tatay mo na kausapin ka tapos ganto gagawin ?! Back stab us?!!" She said and that's when my tears fell. I look at her .
"Is it called back stab telling other people what Im feeling because the one that supposed to know it is the reason why I feel like this ?!!" I asked . This is what I hate my sadness turning into anger and now Im the bad person . Another slap was fired that made me fall to the ground . I cried harder.
"Wala ka talagang utang na loob!! Ito ba gusto mo ha ?!! Sige lumayas ka na tutal malakas na yang loob mo !! Layas ! Layas !!" She said , okay then . I stood up and go to my room . I called Nicole a friend , Im glad she answered even if its 2 am in the morning . I called her para sunduin ako . Its night naman na so there's not much enforcers.  I made sure to pack all my things except for my trophies ,certificates and pictures .
Im already decided about this . I should've done this long ago .
Binaba ko na ang mga gamit ko at nag hihintay na ako sa labas ng gate nakita ko na ang kotse ng kaibigan ko . Agad naman syang bumaba at tinulungan nya ako i akyat ang mga gamit ko sa kotse at  saka kami pumasok sa kotse . While driving she keeps on asking me if Im sure about this .
"Nicole, I should've done this before. Remember Nic no one will know about this than the two of us . " I said.
"How about school ?" She asked
"I need you to drive me to my school tomorrow.  Im gonna fix my transcripts ."
"Saan ka magta-transfer ?" She asked .
"I've talked to a school before and they agreed that you can choose home schooling as your learning modality . I know the principal and she agrees with private learning ." I said.
"Teka saan ka titira ?"
"I have my own apartment . My family dont know I have one. So its only you who knows it ." I said
"After we get my transcript tomorrow will gonna go buy my supplies atleast for a month." I said.
"Te anong address? Pano kita ipag drive doon ?" She said I gave her the address and let her drive.

After 2 hours we already arrived .
She help me fix my things in my room . I offered her to sleep over but she said I need some space . I thanked her and she said she'll gonna come tomorrow and bring some food . After she left that's when I broke down . This is it . This is the start of my new life.
I started to delete my social media accounts and left my dummy account in facebook and messenger. Another meltdown to another and another until I fell asleep because of exhaustion.