Falling apart

Chapter 46

Tine's POV:

"Anak ?" Paggising sa akin ni Mama "Yes Mom ?" I said while rubbing my eyes "Gisingin mo na ang kambal mo uuwi na tayo." She said I nod before she left the room. I tap her shoulder and she hummed "Hmmm ?" Tanong nya "Uuwi na raw tayo kambal." Sabi ko she got up from the bed at naghilamos sa bathroom. Inayos na namin ang sarili namin at bumaba na "Ma , Manang , Bonget uwi na kami." Paalam ni Mama Irene at nakipag beso as well as Dad . "Uwi na po kami." Elle and I said and do the same thing that our parents did . Pumasok na kami sa kotse at nagsimula nanaman ang tahimik at malungkot na biyahe , quiet nalang din ako wag nalang ako mag talk. Kambal wears that poker face of hers which is kind of terrifying ? I don't know but Im scared . Mom keeps on glancing on us in the mirror and I see how hesitant she is to say something. "So Elle , do you feel better ?" Tanong ni Dad "Yeah a little bit." She said "Do you wanna stay muna sa bahay ? Baka mapaano ka ehh" alalang sabi ni Mama , Elle scuffed and shrug her head "No." She said and look away . "Would you like to me to stay with you ?" Tanong ko sa kanya "No you have school tomorrow pumunta ka nalang sa akin after school." She said "Okay but ring me if you feel unwell 'kay ?" Tanong ko "Yeah" She said .

Elle's POV:

"Sure ka bang okay ka na dito ng mag isa ?" Tanong sa akin ni kambal nang makapasok na kami sa condo while our parents are waiting for her sa labas "Yes kambal so go on hinihintay ka na dun." I said "Sige bye see you tomorrow." She said and hug me before she left , I look outside the window and saw Mom and Tine hugging each other and then suddenly there's a sting that burns in my heart , I smiled bitterly while my tears are falling . Maybe they can live without me naman bakit pa ako nagpapagamot ? Wala namang reason  para gumaling ako diba ? Maybe I should stop drinking those drugs , I look even more unhealthy drinking them . I wiped my tears at pumunta sa banyo at naghilamos ako and saw the blade that I used last time I took it  and carve imperfect lines on my arm . I don't wanna take my medicines anymore , ayoko na wala na akong pakialam kung anong mangyari sa akin . I called kambal after "Kambal ?" Tanong ko sa kanya trying not to cry "Yes kambal do you need anything?" Tanong nya humikbi ako and cry silently so she wont here "Kambal are you still there ? Kambal ? Kambal okay ka lang ba ?! Do you want me to go there ? Answer me please !" She asked nervously I cleared my throat trying my best to respond clearly . "Nothing I just wanna ask if you're home." I said "Oh yeah kakarating lang namin." She said "Tine do you think it's better na mag homeschool ako ulit ?" Tanong ko sa kanya "Wait why ? I mean it depends on you kung saan ka komportable " She said "But will you be okay alone in the school if ever I decide to attend homeschooling  ?" Tanong ko sa kanya  "Yeah and Mom just told me na expelled na daw yung mga bullies so I think I'll be fine but how about your duties sa school ?" Tanong nya sa akin "I'll still attend meetings if ever I'm really needed ." I said "Teka bakit mo
biglang naisipan na mag homeschool ulit ?" Tanong nya "Well I feel like I'll do better kung hawak ko ang oras ko ." I lied I can't tell her the real reason I don't wanna be a burden to her the favor that she's doing for me now is more than enough ."Okay but you should talk about that with Mom and Dad." She said "Fine We should rest you have school tomorrow." I said "wait kailan ba kayo aalis nila Kuya papuntang Ilocos ?" Tanong nya "Sa Tuesday." I said "Oh okay sige good night!" She said "Good Night!" I said and ended the call .

I lay on my bed but I couldn't sleep and I don't want to take sleeping pills it makes me feel dizzy once I wake up in the morning . I've decided to go to a gasoline station since hindi pa naman ako nagdi dinner . I drove my way to the nearest gasoline station but I don't like the food there and decided to buy some alcohol drinks because why not ? I want one then I drive thru Jollibee to buy a bucket of chicken and jolli spaghetti. Umuwi ako sa bahay at kumain , nang matapos ako ay sinimulan ko na ang mag inom. Kaya pala favorite ni kuya Sandro itong San Mig masarap pala sya akala ko kasi pangit lasa nito ehh buti nalang marami akong binili mag stock ako sa ref nito . I drink five bottles and I'm tipsy kaya tinigil ko na pumunta ako sa banyo para magluto.... Charot! Para maligo hehe I filled the tub with warm water and relax myself a little bit then fix myself and wear my pjs go to bed . I immediately fell asleep .