Falling apart

Chapter 40

P.S : mature scene at the end of the chapter . Read at your own risk.......

Irene's POV:

We all got home and as what Greggy commanded we will talk about what just happened today in the living room the twin sat together waiting for us to talk. "So.......... What is it parents ? May staring contest po ba tayo ?" Tanong ni Tine na agad namang siniko ni Elle , Tine was about to react but didn't and put her most serious manner . "About what happened kanina -" I wasn't even finish talking when Elle speaks. "What happened kanina was a misunderstanding and we should move on !" She said bago lumapit sa akin at yakapin ako . I heave a sigh and hug her , I signaled Tine to hug us then all of us hug each other . Hay nako ang mga anak ko nga selosa mana sa..... Okay fine sa akin 🙄 . "How about movie night ?" Tanong ni Tine . "Sure ! Who's the food sponsor for today's video ?" Tanong ni Elle . "Order what ever you want ! My treat !" Greggy said . Yoohoo ! Hindi ako gagastos for today's video ? Tama ba yun guys ? Yun kasi naririnig ko sa kambal ehh 😅 . "Pizza!" The twin said . We all change our clothes at pumunta sa theater room , The pizza finally arrive kaya naghanap na ang kambal ng papanoorin then we decided to watch Bridgerton again kasi why not ? Di naman nakakasawa ehh .

Elle's POV:

They all fell asleep that's why ako na ang nagligpit ng kalat and the one to turn off the tv . By the time I'm finish it's already late . I look at them intently and did not notice my tears falling again , What is exactly wrong with you Elle ? Why can't you be happy that your Mom is happy now ? Why can't you be contented ? Bakit hindi ko kayang maging special katulad ni kambal ? Bakit substitute nya lang ako when times you're lonely and she wasn't there Mom ? Bakit panandalian lang yung unconditional love na binigay mo sa akin ? For how many years ? Two ? Hanggang doon lang ba ang kaya mo tapos si kambal na ulit ? Sana hindi mo nalang pinaramdam sa akin lahat ng yon because now I feel like I dont mean anything anymore , I shouldn't be feeling this but I feel like the barrier that you broke down these past years is making its way to build it again. I'm trying to be happy in front of you in front of everyone rather because I don't wanna hurt you anymore , lumabas na sa sarili mong bibig ehh , You still blame me why Tine got into a coma . I don't think it's right to think but sometimes I wish na sana hindi nalang siya gumising siguro kung ganon man ang nangyari mas lalo kang masasaktan kasi all you want is her , not me , not Emmanuelle Marcos fucking Araneta ! Not me ! Her ! But kahit gaanong kasama ang isipin ko about my twin wala ehh ! I can't be mad at her , kapatid ko sya ehh mahal ko sya and I dont wanna hurt her as well so I would rather hurt myself but not them . Ako nalang they have suffered enough because of me mas mabuti na yung ganito , lokohin ko nalang ang sarili ko to think that I'm okay , everything is okay , act okay hanggang sa hindi ko na kayanin . I don't know what will happen when I burst out pero wala na akong pakialam . Mangyari na ang mangyari kung sakali. I dont wanna make a giant tower to protect my feelings and their feelings but I have to . Siguro nga ako ang malas sa pamilyang ito ehh , diba ganon yun pag kambal ? Yung isa perfect tapos yung isa black sheep . I lay next to Dad cause I feel lonely pag nandoon ako sa likod ni Mom di naman ako ang niyayakap nya and it's quite cold here , I hug Daddy and buried my face against his chest , he then hug me and start to comb my hair with his fingers and there I found my peace at least .

The next day I get up first to cook breakfast for them , reason ko lang to go to school early cause I wanna avoid them for now until I don't know maybe pag nakapag isip isip na ako and after school ay pupunta ako sa psychologist ko . I cook them fried rice , hotdogs, eggs , and ham pagkatapos ko ay kumain na agad ako at pumasok ako ng kwarto bago maligo . Nang matapos kong maligo ay nagbihis na ako at hinanda ang gamit ko , I left a note on the table then get my car key and drive to Starbucks first to get some coffee before going to school , I showed the guard my ID and go directly to our class room . I talk to my classmates and we are all laughing when kambal called me lumabas ako ng room to answer her call . "Hello Tine ? Napatawag ka ?" Tanong ki sa kanya. "Thank you sa breakfast kambal ! Ang sarap ! Wala I just want you to know that nandito na ako sa room ko and sabay tayo mag lunch mamaya ahh !" She said sweetly I smiled "Thanks sa compliment kambal and yes I'll join you for lunch okay ? See yah !" I said "Okay I love you!" She said . Paano ba naman ako magagalit dito ? Ehh sa akin naman may mali hindi sa kanya . "Bye ! I love you too !" I said and end the call at bumalik sa mga kaklase ko. " Ikaw ha ! May ka I love you ka na ! Sino yarn Mars ?!" Tanong sa akin ng bakla kong kaklase na si Julius . "Hoy ! Malisyoso ka talaga kahit kailan ! Kambal ko yung tumawag !" I said and we all laughed "Sorry naman akala ko may chupapi ka na ehh !" Julius said that made me laugh harder "Hay nako Julius ! Ayoko pa magkajowa di ko na nga ma handle ang lessons natin dadagdagan ko pa ng isa pang konsumisyon ?" I said "Ang rami kayang nagkaka crush sayo Ms. President !" Sabi naman ni Jake , Yes ako ang president ng SSG dito sa school . "Hay nako Jake wala nga akong time para sa mga ganyan ! Ang rami kong commitments sa school !" I said and roll my eyes. "Just saying you know ! Wala ka bang crush dito sa school ?" Tanong ni Mica " Actually wala ." I said in a bored manner . "Baka naman sobrang taas ng standards mo !" Sabi naman ni Ashley "Hindi naman ehh ! Wala naman naglalakas loob manligaw sa akin paano ako magkaka boyfriend ?" Sabi ko . "Ehh kasi naman parang nakakatakot manligaw sayo ! Ang rami mong Kuya ! Plus yung Dad at Tito mo pa ! Actually buong angkan nyo !" Sabat ni Julius I just chuckle and shrug my head. "Ano bang gusto mo sa lalaki ?" Tanong sa akin ni Mica , napaisip naman ako kung ano nga ba ang gusto ko sa lalaki . "Basta Matalino , mabait , magalang , may respeto sa lahat lalong lalo na sa babae okay na yun !" I said and they all looked at each other like they know someone like what I had just described. "MR. VICE PRESIDENT !!" They exclaimed. "What ?" Tanong ko. "You just described him Elle !" Ashley said. "Oh come on ! Baka ma issue kaming dalawa because of you all ! Elias and I are friends !" I said and grit my teeth . "Ito naman ! Nag su suggest lang naman kami ! Mag balikan na nga tayo sa upuan natin malapit na ang time." Mica said kaya bumalik na kami sa mga upuan namin and fix ourselves. Grabe naman itong mga toh ! Elias is a close friend of mine kasi kapartido ko sya and he is in a relationship and I really dont think of him more than a friend . I shrug the thought off and read my book .