Falling apart

Chapter 44

Tine's POV :

"Kambal !" Huling tawag ko sa kanya but her car is to fast "What was that Mom ?!" I ask and enter the car and it's quiet along the way . I entered the house and was about to go to my room when I remember something to ask "What happened four years ago ? Anong nangyari kay kambal ? Did you hurt her kaya sya ganyan ? Is it because of me ? Was that your secret ? What have you done to her ?!!" Tanong ko I can't control my tears anymore but she kept quiet "ANSWER ME !!!!" I said angrily "I'm sorry anak di ko naman sinasadya ! I was just so sad and nabuntong ko sa kambal mo yung galit ko I'm sorry !!" She cried natulala nalang ako my knees weakened because of the revelation that I've heard "H-how can y-you do that to h-her !!your own daughter !!! It's my choice! She hang on ! Im the one who let go Ma ! Bakit ?!!!" I cried "All this time !! I'm the one who hurt her ?!! " I asked and fall to my knees "Anak I'm sorry!!" She said "You shouldn't be apologizing to me !!! To her Ma !! Do you think she'll forgive you for what you've done now ? No !" I yelled and run upstairs and close the door I cried so hard and scream my lungs out . She's been so good to me then this is what will happen to her ? And it's because of me ? I really need to fix them or atleast have them talk for Mama Meldy kasi we are all dead when she finds out . I took a long bath and go downstairs to see them still in the living room "Anak please talk to me ." Mama Irene said and stand up "I'm okay we're okay." I said she hugs me and I hugged her back "We just have to make a way to fix your relationship with kambal that's what matters." I said "What's for dinner ?" Tanong ko "I cooked pinakbet since your Mom can't stand up kanina." Mama Imee said kaya pumunta na kami sa kusina and start to eat "I'm gonna go to kambal tomorrow to look out for her weekend naman ehh ." I said and they just nod "Anak pwede ba akong sumama ?" Tanong sa akin ni Mama "It's not yet the time for you to talk to her Ma , magpalamig muna kayong dalawa and I need to talk to her personally." I said "Do you want me to drive for you ?" Tanong ni Dad . "No thanks Dad." I said and smile.

Elle's POV:

Im here in the grocery store shopping for goods cause I don't have any stocks sa bahay . I still feel the sting on my cheek and everytime I think of what just happened I shrug it off mamaya nalang ako magwawala sa bahay then napadaan naman ako sa Drinks area wines, and champagne caught my attention how does it taste like kaya lumapit ako and took a bottle it looks good so I grab a bottle and two bottles of champagne. Wala naman sila ehh and do they even care ? I dont think so . Kumuha ako ng chips to go with it I'll drink it after dinner . Binayaran ko na ang pinamili ko at dumiretso sa bahay I baked mac and cheese then sat on the floor in the living room while watching a movie the bottles are just by my side . Im so excited atleast for tonight I'll forget my memories. I opened a bottle of champagne first para di ako mabigla and it taste like soda tinungga ko from the bottle and eat some chips .
than champagne and my world is swirling and it looks funny . I finished the bottle but I feel like Im gonna puke. Gumapang ako papuntang banyo cause I couldn't stand anymore at sumuka sa toilet I tried to stand up after at pumunta sa kwarto pero di ko na kaya and decided to sleep on the couch but I wasn't even near it when I pass out .

Tine's POV:

Im preparing to go to kambal may pasok sila Mom ngayon kaya ako lang and mas mabuti na yun . I've got a spare key of kambal's condo . I really dont know why she bought a condo but it looks like it's a good decision for her if she needed space like now . Pinagdrive ako ni manong at nagpababa na ako sa tapat ng bahay ni kambal at pumasok na ako at ang bumulagta sa harapan ko ay si kambal who's laying on the floor . I see the mess in the house and I saw bottles ?!! Bottles of wine and what ?! Champagne? Kailan pa sya natutong uminom ? I clean up her mess and when I was about to use the bathroom may suka sya doon Yakkkkk . I also clean up the bathroom and decided to cook for her , for sure may hang over sya . I cook tinola since yun ang lagjng niluluto ni Mama pag may hang over si Dad or sila Kuya kumpleto naman na sya sa ingredients dito sa bahay . I start to cook at nang matapos akong magluto ay ginising ko na si kambal . "Kambal ? Elle gising na ! 8 am na oh !" I said and shake her she opened her eyes and slowly stand up holding her head "Boom dasurv !" I said and help her to sit down on the sofa "When did you start drinking alcohol ?" I ask " Ahh last night." She said at sumandal sya "I cook something for you." I said at kumuha ng tinola for her . Humigop sya ng sabaw and I saw cuts on her left arm I grabbed her arm and look at it , I think it's a day year old "When did you do this ?" Tanong ko sa kanya she smiled at me and trace her cuts "The night I was freed from the house ." She said but she told me she was okay . "I really need to talk to you but can you please take a bath first because you stink " I said that made her laugh , how can she laugh ? "Okay ! Thank you for cleaning the house and visiting me here ." She said before walking upstairs . I watch TV while waiting for her and when she arrived I turned it off and let her sit beside me . "So what is it kambal ?" Tanong nya "Mom told me what happened years ago last night ." I said "But I need to hear the whole story from you." I said she sighed and position herself comfortably. "Well the day the doctor announced that you're in a state of coma that's when Mom started her cold treatment then it went by after two years Tita Dawn and Ayisha invited me out to go to Laguna and I spend my two days there and let out some feelings then they told Mom about it and when I got home Mom and I got into a confrontation because Dad is drunk because he taught that he's the worst Dad in the world and then pinalayas ako ni Mom and thank God I bought this house where Nicole help me move in then I start to attend home schooling that time kasi nagtatago talaga ako sa kanila and I decided to meet them on Christmas day and that time I already know how to drive and drove from here to Ilocos Norte and thank goodness I didn't get caught by the police and find out I was a minor , then we reconciled and things are going well but we still fight a little then ...." She wasn't done speaking so I finished it for her "Then I woke up ?" I said "Yeah you did ." She said then look down and smile "Do you wish I didn't wake up ? Don't worry I wont be mad ." I said "Sometimes but I know to myself that I cannot live without you , you know ? I just can't really wish that something bad should happen to you. Kahit naman di ka magising di pa rin naman ako ang paborito ni Mama." She said that shocked me "That's not true! She loves us equally !" I said "You can't see it kambal unless you're in my position and why did she mistreated me if she loves us equally ? You know kambal natanggap ko na yan long ago. Hindi ko lang talaga sya kayang patawarin sa ngayon , kambal masakit ehh ! Tignan mo nasaktan ka na nga pinagtanggol kita ako parin ang masama , ako parin yung black sheep at basagulera nyang anak and she still thinks about are family's reputation after what happened to you ? Di pa ba sira ang dignidad ng pamilyang toh ? Kahit naman wala tayong gawing mali galit parin ang mga tao sa atin." She said she makes sense but she's still my mother's child. "How about your cuts ? How will you explain it !" Tanong ko sa kanya nang bigla syang tumayo at pumunta sa taas and came back with bottles of medicine. "I just took Anti-depressant after eating tinola." She said boredly said I look at her and see her hollowed eyes I hugged her and cried "Bakit di mo sinabi sa akin ? Akala ko ba no secrets ?" Tanong ko sa kanya "It's better kung hindi nyo malalaman but the events triggered them." She said and pointed the medicines "That one is for depression, one for anxiety,and one for insomnia and I have anorexia but there's no drugs that can help me with it that's why I have to be careful with what Im eating and last night I ate a lot that's why I vomited not because Im drunk." She said "You should really tell this to Mom." I said and she laugh sarcastically "For what ? For her sympathy? No thank you." She said I sighed "Ganoon nalang ba talaga kalaki ang galit mo kay Mom ! Paano sa birthday ni Mama Meldy? Birthday natin ?" Tanong ko sa kanya "Fake it , that's where I'm good at mana kay Mom." She said "Aren't you mad at me ? I'm the reason kung bakit ganito ang relasyon nyo ni Mom right now ." I said "No . It's up to the person how she'll react." She said "How about Dad ?" I ask then she shrug her head means no . "How will I make it up to you ? I owe you a lot you've been sacrificing for me your whole life I think it's time to give back." I said and hold her hand "Just don't tell anyone about my mental health that's all." She said and smile "Okay but it's not enough." I said "Okay take me out every Saturday starting from now , libre mo lahat wala akong gagastusin." She said "Okay saan mo ba gusto pumunta?" Tanong ko "Gusto ko pumunta sa museum kahit saang museum." She said "But you'll be the one who's driving." I said "Okay fine ! Pero one time pumunta ka dito tuturuan kitang mag drive." She said that I agree with "Should we go now ?" Tanong ko " I think we should magbibihis lang ako ." She said and went upstairs para magpalit . "Tara na!" She said holding her car key and her bag . We locked the house and rive away and sya nalang bahala kung saan nya gustong museum. Mom texted me asking how's it going and I told her that I'll tell her later when I get home . We decided to go to National Museum of Fine Arts because that's our favorite also Mom's. Nang naiparking na ni kambala ang sasakyan ay pumasok na kami sa loob . She took out her camera and another camera which is a Polaroid one and we take some pictures and I send a picture of her to Mom I hope this will make her feel better .

"Kambal look ! This is so beautiful!!" She said while pointing the painting. "I think it new ." I said at lumapit sa kanya . "Let's take a picture!" She said and we posted in front of the polaroid camera and wait for it to come out . "Ang cute natin hahaha!" She laughed while I smile at her atleast I can make her feel better a little. "Tara na kambal ! Starbucks tayo !" I said and grab her and went to a near branch of Starbucks and we still ordered the same drinks . I took a photo of our drinks and my day it on Instagram.

"Kambal saan mo pa gusto pumunta?" Tanong ko while she's taking her medicine for her anxiety . "Sa Moa kambal shopping tayo." She said  . Mukhang uubusin nya ang pera ko huhu. "Sure twinny ! Your wish is my command!" I said that made her laugh . She drove to Moa and go to jewelry store and Im picking a necklace for Mom "Hey kambal ! Come here really quick !" I said then she walk from the earrings section to me "Yeah what is it ?" Tanong nya "What do you think Mama will want more ?" Tanong ko "basta galing sayo gusto nun !" She said at nag walk out pero I'm to fast and grab her arm "Ano nga kasi ?! I'm asking you properly ayaw mo naman ako sagutin ng maayos !" I said feeling annoyed. "The butterfly one with a diamond on the head ." She said plainly and pick some earrings for herself I ask the sales lady for help and buy some for myself. "Kambal what if we buy rings for Mama Imee and Momshie Loren." Kambal suggested "Sige ba but I dont know their ring sizes ." I said "I know." She said and pick two rings for them . "Kambal what do you think ?" Tanong nya "It's expensive." I said plainly na ikinatawa nya "Well tuwing Saturday mauubos ang pera mo hahaha !" She laugh I sighed and look at the rings "They are beautiful........... But still expensive." I said  "excuse me Miss ? We would also like to purchase these." Kambal said kaya wala na akong magagawa .

We got home and we are both tired . "Kambal ? Can you stay here for tonight ?" She ask "I don't know kambal , di ako nakapagpaalam kay Mom ehh but I'll try to ring her." I said and grab my phone to call Mama. "Hello Ma ?" I ask "Hmmm ?" Tanong nya "Can I stay here kay kambal for tonight ? She's asking me if I could stay." I said " okay basta go home tomorrow, love you both!" She said "Love you too ." I said and hang up. "Kambal una lang ako sa kwarto ha ?" Paalam niya at pumunta sa kwarto. A few minutes ay dinundan ko na sya and saw her crying at the corner I quickly hug her and she hugged me back and cry harder "Anxiety attack ?" Tanong ko snd she nod I lead her to the bed and try to console her then she fall asleep a few minutes after . I carefully remove her hands off me cause I have to take a shower. I borrowed some of her clothes ang kay beside her . She immediately hugged me and put her leg on top of me . Hay nako kambal , even though you're mad at Mom di mo maipagkakaila na anak ka nya . From pagiging selosa , to being a cuddler , to temper and lahat lahat na . Sana naman maayos ko kayo because I'll treat it as a big failure my entire life.