Falling apart

Chapter 49

Elle's POV:

"Elle ! Wake up !" Sigaw ni Mama Imee napasinghap ako at hinabol ang aking hininga "It was just a dream okay ? Here's some water." She said at inabutan ako ng tubig I drink it at napatulala nalang ako . "Hey what is it ? Ano bang napanaginipan mo ?" Tanong ni Momshie Loren "Nawalan daw ng preno itong sasakyan natin tapos nabangga tayo ng truck tapos lahat daw tayo namatay." Taranta kong sabi "Hey we are safe , Manong checked this before we use it okay ?" Mama Imee reassured . I lay my head on the head chair and close my eyes . "It's fine okay ? Breathe Honey." Momshie Loren said "I thought it was real gosh !" I said "It's fine you're fine." Mama Imee said and hug me "Nasaan na po tayo ?" Tanong ko sa kanila "Malayo pa tayo 'nak matulog ka muna ." Mama Imee said "How will I get sleep after that dream Mama ?" Sabi ko sa kanya "Okay , libangin mo muna ang sarili mo ." She said "Okay." I said and think of something that I can do "Ma I don't know what do." I said "Do you want to eat ?" Tanong nya tumango nalang ako and she gave me a sandwich . "Something bothering you lately hmmm ?" Tanong ni Momshie Loren who laid her head on my shoulder "Wala po aside from our family situation and I've been having varieties of dreams and sometimes I couldn't move then I searched it online and I think I'm having sleep paralysis and sometimes I dont wanna sleep because it's so scary ." I said and drink some water "Is there any medication for that ?" Tanong ni Mama Imee "There are but baka naman maluto na ang atay ko kakainom ng gamot and ayoko na grabe mga side effects ehh." I said "Did you bring your medicines with you ?" Tanong ni Mama Imee "Yeah I did ." I said and someone called my number and it's Mom I was hesitant at first but Mama Imee insists me to answer it "Sige na ! Sagutin mo na baka nagooverthink nanaman yang nanay mo." She that's why I answered it "Hello Ma what's up ?" Tanong ko sa kanya "Kamusta kayo dyan ?" Tanong nya "We're good." I said and play with my nails "How about you?" Tanong nya "Well I just woke up from a nap and had a bad dream." I said "What is it ? Tell me " she said "Nothing to worry it's just a dream." I said "Okay , if you say so umm I'm gonna hang up na ha ? See you and take care !" She said "You too." I said and ended the call "What did she say?" Tanong ni Mama Imee "Just asking how we are." I said "Matagal pa ba tayo ?" Tanong ko "Traffic kasi ehh pero maya maya wala na yan ." Mama Imee said and also lay her head on my shoulder "Mmmkay." I said lay my head on top of Momshie Loren's head "Tulog ka na 'nak gigisingin ka namin if ever na managinip ka ." She said I close my eyes and try to calm myself down. I feel someone holding my hand and massage it I felt relax for a bit "Mama Imee sa tingin mo , mababalik ko pa kaya yung dating ako ?" Tanong ko sa kanya "Bakit ? Ayaw mo ba sa sarili mo ngayon ?" Tanong nya sa akin I open my eyes and look at her "I don't know ma , I like it that I know a lot than before but it feels like I wanna go back , I feel so lost." I said "Maybe come back where it all started." She said and fix my hair "Where ?" Tanong ko sa kanya "Paoay Church." She said that made me think , will it answer my questions ? I just nod at her and continue thinking . Yes that's where it all started , that's where Mom and Dad got married and where kambal and I are baptized and the foundation of our home . "Well may I borrow your car later ?" Tanong ko sa kanya "Sure basta you should come home before seven." She said at niyakap ako "Pwede bang doon ka matulog sa kwarto ko mamaya kasama ni Momshie Loren mo ?" Tanong nya "Why nag away kayo ?" Tanong ko sa kanya at umiling sya "Ayaw mo mapagod tonight ?" Tanong ko pero umiling parin sya "Pinaglilihian mo na ako ?" Tanong ko nang bigla nya akong batukan "Gaga ! Hindi !" She said "Ehh ano nga po ?!" Iritang sabi ko "Ikaw kanina ka pa masungit, naglalambing lang sayo ehh ! Para kang si Ading." She said and cross her arms at nag pout . I hug her and kiss her on the cheek "Yan pwede na ba yan ?" Tanong ko sa kanya "Ehh gusto kitang katabi." She said "yun lang naman pala ma eh ! Okay tabihan kita later." I said "Sabi mo yan ha !" She said and hug me that made me laugh "Hahahaha yeah I will !" I said and smell her scent . Amoy baby . "Ma amoy baby ka." I said "Talaga ? Thank you." I said "Amoy lungad ka ng bata hahahahaha!" Pang aasar ko sa kanya "Ahh ganon ha !" She said and tickle me "Ma ! Stop ! Baka magising si Momshie hahahaha !" I laughed and she stopped then pinch my cheeks "Arayyy Ma !" I said and snuggle on her neck . "Hmmm namiss kita alam mo ba yun ?" Tanong nya "busy ka kasi kakagawa ng bata ." I said and chuckle "Sira ! Don't you miss me ?" Tanong nya "I do." I said "hmmm sige na matulog ka na , I'm here." She said that made me feel safer "As long as I'm here no one can hurt you." She said that made me smile "I love you Ma." I said "I love you too." She said and kiss the top of my head and start to caress my hair until I drifted off to sleep .