Keep Fighting

𓊈卍 𝟔𝟐 卍𓊉

I thought I learned everything.

But of course there was more to it.

Why did you have to tell me?

I would've been fine not knowing.

You were so much more than the shadowy stranger I thought you were.

Meeting you was a mistake in every timeline.

You knew me even before I existed.

You knew of the hellish fate that awaited me.

Yet you didn't do a goddamn thing.

Someone who specializes in the art of killing is afraid of a murderer.

Just like father, you feared what you created.

You think you'd be fixing your mistake, when really you'd cause history to repeat itself.

I'm just glad I never have to see you again.

But thanks to you, I have to suffer even more.

'The truth hurts.'

Yes.

It does

It really, really does.

It might as well become the bane of me.

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

'This was a mistake.'

Nakano is still wearing her Toman uniform, but is wearing a simple hoodie over it. Her hands are stuffed into her pockets, trying to keep them warm.

She's walking around to clear her mind and keep herself from freezing, and she's trying to keep her body from completely shutting down from a significant lack of sleep.

She has no idea what she's doing anymore. There's really no point for her at all. There was only one reason why she kept going. One reason why she forced herself to keep fighting on.

And it was a total lie.

She learned too much last night. The truth unravelled. Her world collapsed on her. The illusion faded.

It's all too much for her to process after only a few hours. Things were going so well. She really felt like she was going in the right direction.

It's just one mistake after another. Every step she took, it was like her ground was becoming more uneven. Now it feels like she's walking a tightrope of the last string of will she has left.

She just wants to go back already. But it was like something was urging her to stay here. Some sort of gut feeling that she didn't like very much. It was really bothering her. She doesn't know why, but she feels something coming.

She hates these gut feelings, because no matter how hard she tries not to care, it only gets worse. And then the worst does end up happening.

So she needs to stay and figure out what it is. She has this obligation to fix it before something fucks up the future again. She has to do it now, because she doesn't want to come back.

She just wants this all to end already. She wants to move on with her life. Coming back only made her realize.

She was never meant to be here in the first place.

The sun has been up for a while now. It's already ten in the morning, which means she's been wandering around the city alone for the past four hours.

She stayed at the Hanagaki residence for a bit, cleaning up the aftermath of the drunk fit mother had. The last thing she needed was Takemichi waking up to that mess and asking questions. So, she cleaned it all up, and even cooked food to make it seem like a normal morning.