True Love Always Win

Chapter 39

"It is a rare mood disorder. Cyclothymia causes emotional ups and downs, but they're not as extreme as those in bipolar I or II disorder,"

I was silently listening to James as I already convince him to tell me what is Chris case.

"What is the cause of it?" I curiosity asked, there's something on my feelings that saying something.

"Genetics, as cyclothymia tends to run in families, but Charlotte explain to me that in their family they don't have case like that, it just Chris. It's either the differences in the way the brain works, environmental issues, such as traumatic experiences or prolonged periods of stress, but true estimates are hard to make because people may be undiagnosed or misdiagnosed as having other mood disorders, such as depression."

"James nalilito ako." Seryosong saad ko at napabuntong hininga naman si James.

"Isa lang ang gusto kung malaman. Ako ba ang dahilan?" Diretshan kung saad.

Napabuntong hininga ulit siya, "Grace, please,"

"Am I the reason James?" I ask again.

He shake his head, "I literally don't know, Charlotte said that it was started when he is fourteen and after a year's it stop, then when you leave it back again,"

"James, I Am." I said with a tear in my eyes.

James approach me and shake his head, "No, my love. Don't blame your self huh? your not the reason."

"B-but... you just said... i-in environment... I'm in his environment before... and when I leave, he lost..." I said between my subbed.

James kiss my temple, "Grace, it's not your fault. His environment before was full of judgement that bring him to stress and to become a depression that now back in disorder. He already have this case before when you two are not yet together... So my love please don't blame your self, huh?"

I was still crying, he already have this case. We've been years of dating why he didn't say to me? he already had this case so it's not a new anymore, but it trigger him when I leave.

I was still crying in James shoulder as James giving me a warm hug. I still can't process what I've heard. I mean, I understand it, I just can't understand why James saying that it's not my fault when I am the reason why he got triggered.

"Is it have a medication so he can heal?" I ask still hugging James.

James let a deep breath, "This case is rare, Grace. It also hard to manage, there's no medication of it, but I giving him a medication used to treat his bipolar disorder. These medications may help him to control cyclothymia symptoms and prevent periods of hypomanic and depressive symptoms. And base this past few days, I think he is not drinking his medicine."

Doon ko naintindihan si James. Hindi umiinom si Chris ng gamot niya kaya ganun siya umakto, kaya muntik niya ng mapatay nung isang araw si James. It's creepy if he didn't take his medicine. He was so damn creepy.

I look up to look at James, "What should we do?"

James wipe my tear's and kiss my head, "I am his Doctor, Grace. Let me full fill my duty,"

I pouted, "But I am the reason," I said in a small voice but I know James heard it.

He let a deep breath again, "I told you, don't blame your self because it's not your fault, your not the reason my love,"

"But I triggered him, I left him," I said in a small voice again still pouting.

James kiss my head, my eyes, my nose, my cheeks and my lips, "I love you..."