EXO IMAGINES

It's not love (Sehun)

Love was love when we were young. We were wild, the hot young blood made us do things that were love. Love isn't love when your love somehow gets buried under all the responsibilities.

I saw my young love getting away with someone else's young love.

____

"Sehun where are we going?" I whispered. He tilted his head a little and flashed a smile. I have given away myself to that one smile. He made me wanna be someone else that I wasn't. He was someone I wanted to be but I didn't have the courage ever.

He made me fearless. I was someone else when I was with him. Everytime he reminded me we were so different, everytime he reminded that I couldn't bear with his energy if I didn't run with him. I was always on run with him. Sometimes to a new city, sometimes to an old garage, sometimes crashing into someone's wedding, sometimes he didn't even know where he was taking me.

That time too he didn't know. But I knew something else. I left my lectures that could cut a few percentages from my grade but I couldn't care. I was more curious where we could stop that day. We didn't stop until I screamed.

"Sehun, watch out!!!" My hands were trembling. Cars were coming our way on full speed. I didn't realize we were in the middle of the street. My hand which was holding his tried to leave his but he looked down at me and his hold onto my wrist gotten tight as the cars stopped and they were yelling at us. I sat down and he took me in embrace.

"What's this craziness!" Once we were somewhere quiet I spoke up. He looked down at our linked hands.

"Ree, remember this place?"

"Sehun, are you out of your mind? What if something could happen to us?" I almost cried as I stepped in near him and my head fell on his chest. He ran his fingers through my hair.

"Nothing happened. We were together, what could go wrong..."

I felt a sharp pain remembering I tried to leave him.

"Sehun, I am sorry... Maybe I can't.. This craze isn't something I can wear."

"Ree, did you see yourself? You wear it so shamelessly, you yet to know that. You have no idea but you are in this more than you think you are..."

"I tried to leave you today..." I parted the hug and looked up at him. Suddenly it started to rain.. The first few droplets fell on my young love. His eyes became so moist.

"I know but I will hold onto you like today always.."

I never knew someone could love me like that. Never knew love could be that crazy.

We stood there until we both got drenched in rain.

"We will catch cold" I laughed.

"Ohh yeah I totally forgot.." He took off his backpack and brought out an umbrella. I raised an eyebrow.

"You had this all this while?!!"

"Yeah" He shrugged.

"What do you mean yeah? Why didn't you take it out then?"

"Then you would never want to bath with me in rain, would you?"

"You never know.." I took the umbrella and placed it on the grass. The rain was pouring and I pulled his sleeve.

"Wanna sit down for a while?" I asked.

He nodded.

We made paper boats and put them under the umbrella.

"At least it came in use for something" I smiled as I stared at the two small boats.

"You can't even make a paper boat properly Sehun.." I whined. He suddenly leaned in and tucked my wet hair behind my ears as his fingertips caressed my warm cheeks.

I closed my eyes to be kissed by my young love one last time. His kisses were slow nothing like how his heart beats. He softly parted his lips from mine.

"Ree, do you have any wish?"

"Umm lemme think.."

"I wanna come here with you when we are old." He let out a beautiful sigh.

It was those rare moments when I saw Sehun so calmed down otherwise he was like wind. Fast and never stopping in one place.. He was storm but a silent one, never harmed anyone..

"I didn't have any wish but now my wish is to make your wish come true.." I said and he looked at me and pushed me down to the grass. Water splashed on our paper boats as he hovered on me.

"Say that again..."

My heart was beating so fast. It never knew something could make it feel that way other than exams.

"What..." I was heaving..

"Ree, you wanna go somewhere with me?"

I nodded. I feared what it could possibly. He stood up and reached out his hand to pull me up following him. I left with him as I was looking back at the paper boats getting wet and tearing down.. It was sad.

We made that with love and how could it would be torn down so easily. That time I didn't know, I wasn't mature they say. They say young people love so easily. I did love? I was taught love. Sehun showed me what could love be.. I never knew love and I never get to see it again after him.

Sehun took me to an old abandoned workshop. He said it was his dad. There was a cat, I watched him as he pat the cat. The cat was so eagerly waiting for him to show some affection but Sehun, as if at that moment he just knew me. He kept on talking about things to me.. He stopped when he saw me stretching down my sleeves to cover my palms, they were cold.

"Ree, and you tell me I am crazy.. How can you stay in that wet clothes too long?"

"It's fine, Sehun."

"It's not.. Let's go."

"Now where..."

He chuckled. "Nowhere. I sometimes stay here when I miss dad. I have a few spare clothes in here. I will get something for you."

"Ohh.."

He walked to the table and took out clothes from the drawers.

"Umm so this isn't the best place as you can see.. I will go out while you change.."

I grabbed him by his wrist.

"Sehun I am scared. You can stay.."

"You sure? I ain't a decent guy..." He raised an eyebrow.

"Yes, you can stay..." I let go of his hand.

___

"Maam, sir will be here any time soon. It's not safe to go out now..." The maid bowed as I asked for the driver to take out the car.

"Tell him I am out for work"

"But maam it's raining.. He doesn't like you going out so frequently alone. Sir asked me to stop you.."

I looked outside as my eyes became teary. Sehun left me but why did he leave his love with me..

I can't convince myself that I am not young anymore. I have a husband to whom I am supposed to committed but my mind goes to that workshop everytime it rains.

I heard the footsteps coming.

"Maam, please collect yourself. Sir wants to see you." The maid left.

I took a deep breath.

"Reethan, you look upset.."

I smiled bitterly. I couldn't care to respond to him. I will someday run away from here and go where my heart is.

My wish is yet to be true. Sehun taught me to love but he didn't teach me to love someone else other than him. I learned how to escape from everything from him but as I said I was never brave like him, I am still waiting for him to someday come to get me. I will run away with him. But in deep I know he is with someone else's young love..

I saw my young love getting away with someone else's young love.

____