I've realized I'll never fall in love
No matter how much I crave
No matter how much I pray
No matter how much I plead
I buried my heart next to the screaming
I buried my heart next to the beating
I buried it in that room with the broken door
I buried it in the room I used to sleep in
For I am too traumatized by the things done
Too traumatized by the flashbacks of blood
Too traumatized by the people I once called family
Too traumatized by my life slipping away from me, only to be brought back against my will
I am unloveable
I am the unkillable
The unlikable
Simply the man whom no woman could love
But none of that ever stopped me loving myself
Because I was the only one fighting for my life
I was the only one fighting for my peace
And even if I am forever unable to fall in love or be fallen in love with
I still have me
And I'm not going anywhere
