This life I live is esoteric
I'm sprinting and tripping and my feet begin to run before they reach solid ground again
I'm bursting at every seem
I have a million places to be and no idea where I'm going
I could run ten thousand miles and end up right back here
This place like sweet freedom
This place like fiery hell
Everything all at once
Nothing never
A billion thoughts all in one second
There's not enough room in my head for all my thoughts
It's everything all at once all the time
There is no break, there is no fold
Everything all at once, all of the time
Every thought you had today, I had in 2 seconds
Every thought you've ever had, I've had triple
I hear electricity at every turn, I have never known silence
To watch a movie is to torment myself, I can barely sit still for ten minutes
At eighteen years old I still struggle to adhere to social cues, in a conversation I will accidentally cut you off with no control from myself
I have felt annoying from birth
I have been called annoying from birth
I have been socially rejected my whole life
And until very recently I thought I was the problem
Turns out I just have ADHD
