I used to say I was fine being the dearly hated
I thought I deserved the hate
But I'm not so okay with it anymore
I do not deserve to be hated
I hate who I was before
I can't take that time away
People hate me and I don't know why
I thought I was a good person
I want to be free from the burden of hatred
What have I done, please what have I done
I give everything I have until there's nothing left
I'm so tired and exhausted all to be hated
I want to spend time with people I love
But people I love are loved by people who hate me
Who am I to steal someone's time
No one will want to be seen with them if they're seen with me
And I hate this life that I live because I'm so tired
And I'm so unattractive in the mirror
And I'm so hated by people I don't even know
And I just want it all to end
I've given everything, would give anything
I don't believe I've done something wrong
But everyday people still hate me
What the fuck have I done
Every time I think I have a real friend I'm surprised
I'm assaulted
I'm abused
I'm used
I'm hated
There are 4 people in this world who like me for who I am
4 people
All of which I love with my whole heart and soul
But I can't be seen with them
At the end of the day I'll always be the dearly hated
And I'll cry and scream and wonder what I've done
But I'm not ready to lose everyone else to
So I chose silence on the matter.
