The Way We Fell

P I T Y P A R T Y

I STILL NEED YOU AND IT STILL HURTS 

- A. BROWN

♡♡♡

✨Adeline✨

"The actual fucking nerve of him...I mean are you fucking kidding me ?" Kenna says loudly stomping around her room waving her hands. 

After JT had took me to his car he didn't say anything as he turned the radio just loud enough so my awkward sniffling couldn't be heard. He put a box of tissues in my lap and didn't utter a word the whole way to his house. 

I self pitied myself the entire way there, maybe I had it coming or maybe I misunderstood the entire situation to begin with. 

No. 

I wasn't wrong for being upset, you don't kiss someone the way he kissed me and than go off and kiss someone else that's wrong and he's a jerk.

It still hurt though. 

So bad. 

I pulled myself away from my thoughts and focused back on a coughing and angry Kenna. I wasn't planning on spilling my heart out to Kenna but it just happened...I walked into her room teary eyed with JT right behind and I saw Kenna listening to Harry Styles and when she finally caught sight of me she ran up to me and kicked JT out. 

It took me a whole hour and a half to explain everything to her and when I stopped I unleashed angry Kenna. 

She went on an on but to be honest I blanked out because all I could think about were Elias's lips on another girl. 

I didn't want to think about it but my mind took me there unknowingly and I felt the hurt and humiliation all over again.

I've never felt more alone, I didn't want to go home at all because there'd be even more pain to deal with. 

"Hey..." I hear Kenna's soft voice in my ear as she takes in my distraught state. 

I look up at her and suddenly I can't hold it in anymore.

"I keep telling myself not to be surprised because this is the kind of person he is. He hurts people, he hurt me several times but I just can't get myself to believe it. He was so kind to me after he apologized and we moved past everything. He listened to me and defended me...you know ?" I tell Kenna my voice cracking and new flood of tears coming in. 

"He was so nice and he's the first boy who I ever kissed and I know people say boys are going to be boys but I mean what the fuck right ?" I say practically sobbing.

I hate that I was crying. I didn't want to be that girl but here I was heartbroken over a guy who clearly wants nothing to do with me. 

Kenna comes over to where i'm sitting on her bed and she hugs me and lets me cry into her shoulder. 

"It's okay to be upset and cry, but don't for one minute think that you are anything less than worthy. I don't know why Elias did what he did but fuck him for it and you need to understand that his actions don't define you okay ?" 

I nod my head lightly and sniffle before I take a look at us in the mirror and see how disgusting we look and I laugh. 

Kenna joins me and both fall back onto the bed in laughter. I hear heavy footsteps and then JT's head peers into the room and his eyebrows shoot up in confusion. 

Kenna and I look at each other once more and laugh even louder. 

"I'm going to safely guess that this is a girls thing...." JT's rough accent fills the room.