Searing Burst of Rage (Fireheart 2)

Chapter 44

"Do you think I'll pass it?" I asked Alfe, restlessly.

I just arrived from my bar exam and I've been so anxious since the moment I finished my last one. I missed some and I'm not sure about my other answers. I know I'm such a worrier. I don't wanna fail this, it's life or death for me.

"Yes, I do," he confidently said.

"What if I fail?"

"You won't."

"What if I fail?"

"Then, you'll take it again."

"No," I whimpered.

"Forget about the exam, It's done. Hintayin nalang natin ang results," aniya sabay tulak ng isang basong tubig sa harap ko.

"I think I want a glass of wine," I asked.

He shook his head. "Stay healthy."

"I am," I insisted.

"You've been so busy with your review. You skip meals, not drinking much water and not sleeping enough, look at these dark circles," he said pointing at my eyebags. "Most of all, you're losing weight."

"No, I'm not."

"Yes, you are. I definitely know how light you are now compared to before."

"Then, I'll take it as a compliment."

Napailing ulit sya sa naging sagot ko.

"What if I fail?" I asked again. "Multiple choice was the easiest but I'm not even sure anymore. I didn't think it would be so nerve-wracking, I almost puke the moment I got out of the facility. I wish I had studied more," I added as I grabbed a handful of my hair.

"You did amazing. It will be proven once the reason is out."

I didn't listen to him and looked at my palms. "Alfe! My hair is falling!"

Removing my hair off my palm, he said, "Because you pulled it."

"I'm so stressed," I cried.

"Come on. I'll take you to bed. Take a nap and I'll just wake you up for dinner."

"Yea," I agreed and stood up.

"Finish this off first," he stopped me, handing me the water.

Mabilis akong nakatulog nang bumagsak ang katawan ko sa kama. Totoo nga ang sinabi ni Alfe na wala na akong masyadong tulog at minsan ay nalilipasan na ako ng gutom. Kapag focus ako sa pag-aaral ay ayoko talaga ng disturbo at snacks lang kadalasan ang kinakain ko.

Wala naman akong napansing pagbabago sa katawan ko maliban sa makapal kong eyebags. Ngayong tapos na ang exam ay makakapagpahinga na ako at hindi na ako makakarinig ng hindi magandang komento ni Alfe tungkol sa kalusugan ko.

Instead of the glory of having a husband, I slowly feel like I'm having a new parent. Will he be mad if I call him Daddy? Alfe just gets too serious sometimes... perhaps most of the time.

He's not controlling, rather he's preaching. It's not that I don't love that about him, I even enjoy listening to all his jades or maybe sometimes my side of being such an attention seeker heightens. I just love that he watches, notices, and is aware of me.

We've been together and living for years, thus my feelings for him intensify. Sometimes I wonder if it's the same with him. I wasn't really like a wife to him. I don't do things a wife was supposed to. I got some advice from Mama or Charlotte but even the slightest I wasn't good.

Dahil tapos na naman akong mag-aral at naghihintay nalang ng results ay dapat mag-excel din ako sa pagiging mabuting asawa. Wala naman akong narinig na reklamo galing kay Alfe pero alam kong masisiyahan sa gagawin ko.