It's okay until it isn't

Attack

Newt's POV:

No, no, no, no. Minho was going into the maze. What if something also changed there? Minho was walking ahead, while I stayed back, too desperate that if I got close to him, I would stay by him forever. We reached the maze doors, and he turned to look at me. Now was my chance

"Minho, please, please don't go in there."

"Newt, if we can find a way out, then nothing bad will happen, we'll be safe, we won't starve. I need to go in."

"Minho, please."

Minho sighed

"Newt, I need to do this."

"Why?"

The simplest question, but the hardest to answer

"Because I want you to be happy. If I stay here, we'll never get out. You'll never get out."

"You think this will make me happy?"

Minho nodded

"You think that if you die it'll make me happy?"

Minho shook his head

"No, that's not what I meant. . ."

I looked at him.

"Minho, if you die, I won't have a reason to be happy anymore."

I kept going

"If you die, I won't have a reason to live anymore."

Something inside Minho tore. I could see it in his eyes.

"Baby, you have to promise me if I do die, then you have to keep living, keep being happy, promise me you'll keep going."

I looked him straight in the eyes

"If I die, will you do that?"

Silence.

"Then, you know I can't promise that, Min."

The next words Minho said, where so quiet I could barely hear him

"Yeah, I know."

"T-Then why did you ask? Why do you expect me to do it?"

"I-I don't know. It's just, I don't want you to suffer for me, if I don't come back today. . ."

Suddenly I couldn't see. Everything was blurry. I felt something warm drop onto my slack arm. Then I knew what was happening. I was crying. I couldn't see. I was crying too much. I let the tears fall. Minho came, and hugged me. I could barely talk, but I knew what I had to say. What I had to ask.

"Minho, promise me you'll come back."

Minho's voice broke

"You know I can't promise that."

I closed my eyes. I tried to blink the tears away

"I know."

I felt Minho's warmth around me. I still felt cold.

"Min, promise me something else then."

"If I can, I will."

Deep breath. It would take all my strength to just say this without breaking down

"Promise me, promise me you'll try as hard as you can. Promise me."

"I promise. Please, though. Try, really try, to keep going if I don't come back."

"You know I can't say that, because it's not true."

"I-I know. I know. . ."

Minho started to walk away, but then turned and ran back to me. He hugged me. I hugged him as if it were the last time I would, and it very well could be.