By Your Side

Sometimes it's better to let someone go

Humne shayad apni life Mai sab achieve kar liya, shayad Hume sab mil chuka hai, sivay ek cheez ke.

Kyu ka jawab.

Har waqt hum khud se sawal karte hai, jiski shuruaat kyu se hoti hai, par kabhi uska uttar nai mil paaya.

Har waqt Aisa prateet hota hai jaise humne khud ko kho diya hai.
Chain se hasna, dil se Khulna aur khul ke muskurana sab chooth gaya hai.
Hume yaad nai humne pichhli baar kab Aisa Kiya tha. Jab hum khud ko mehsoos kar paate the. Shayad bachpan Mai?

Naah, bachpan Mai bhi kahan sukh tha, Kaushalya ne jo kiya tha ussey saari zimmedari humare upar aa gayi, aur hum bane gaye chid-chide (irritated)

Kabhi kabhi hum sochte sab kuch chodh kar jaana kitna aasan hota hai Naa, bas bag uthao, ghaadi ghumao aur bhaag jao. Kisi se koi matlab nai rakho, aur agar rakh rahe ho toh dur se. Taaki koi rok - tok, pareshani, zimmedari aapke gale ka khanjar Naa bane.

Kyu hum....dekho wapas aa Gaye hum apne aap ko khojne. Fir yeh "Kyu".

Iss word se alag si nafrat ho gayi hai. Aur khud ki nakli Pehchan se toh kaafi jayda.

Kyu hume itna gussa aata tha. Aur kyu jab hum iss uljhan ka hal nai nikal paa rahe.
Jitna karna tha, humne Kiya. Par
Iss samasya ka jadh kya hai?

Kya hai jo aaj tak hume tang kar raha hai, hume shaant nai hone de raha. Kyu hum itni jaldi trigger ho jaate hai?
Kyu nafrat bhar jaati hai humare andar.

Aur jab ho gaya hai toh khud ko theek kaise kare? Agar yeh itna haanikarak hai toh kaise sambhale khud ko? Kaise theek kare sab kuch.

Woh sab kuch jo humare bachpan se bigda hai.

Woh sab kuch jisme humari galti nai thi.

Woh sab kuch jo kabhi humare control mai ho nai paaya.

Kya kare hum?
Mar jaaye?
Yahi sahi lagna laga hai.

Yaa bhag jaaye hum bhi.
Jaise humare bhaiya aur behen ne kiya hai.

Kyuki Aaj Tak kya mila yeh sab karke?
Andar se todhe  gaye Naa hum.

Kabhi kabhi khud liye faisalon par kaafi afsos hota hai. Aur lagta hai isse acha toh jeete nai.

Naam Karishma yaani Chamatkar, aur kismat!

Hassi aati hai kabhi, woh Irony shayad isse kehte hai.

Lagta hai koi toh hume bachahye inn sab se, koi toh nikale iss jhan jhat se.

Par kya hun kabhi bharosa kar paayenge? Kya hum kabhi kisi ke intentions samajh paayenge.

Humare liye toh ab har insaan hume galat lagega.
Aur yeh thodi Naa koi kahani hai, yahan toh apna har ek kadam khud lena hota hai.
Naa koi hero Naa koi heroine.
Hum main character hote hai, aur khud ko bachane Wale bhi hum.
Kisi ko kisi se matlab nai hai. Sab matlabi hai. Sab.

Koi kisi ko samajhna nai chahta, bas apni manmani karni hai.
Emotions ke naam par log lecture toh dete hai, par apne kareebi ke emotions samajne mai arso laga dete hai.

Jaise ki hum toh koi robot ho, jisse ghanta farak nai padhta.

Machine par emotions phule Jaa sakte hai, par ek insaan ke Dil ko chot pahucha pahucha kar patthar bana diya jaata hai.

Yeh apne bhi Naa, sabse jayda chura toh yahi ghokte (stab) hai.
Warna kisi aur ki kya aukaat?

In her hands, Karishma holds a cup of coffee as she sits idly by the opening in the window. In the bean bag, she had her back positioned up.
She had unambiguous eyes and had coffee in her mouth. While they were looking out the window, she could only make out walls and wires above them, along with a piece of glass that had been nailed to the wall to keep people from entering the colony.
Since it had just rained, the window was submerged and blurry. She was relieved to hear the sound of water flooding from the rain. Hearing that sound made her comfortable. Hearing only the sounds of nature, uninterrupted by any living things.