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Kevin's POV

I always thought that worrying about someone makes people weak but when Enede shows her concern for me, asking me how I am or how it went and in her way reassuring me, it made me realise that when you have someone who cares, it only makes you stronger. You have someone to fight for and if it were not for her, I would have no way of feeling anything. My feelings would be numb.

I inch in her direction. «I won't let him have any power over me,» I warn her, glueing my eyes into hers. «Plus, you'll hear everything and be sure to witness it.»

She now seems more relieved and lowers her head to meet my lips and kiss me. We don't kiss constantly, but every time it happens my stomach has the same reaction as the first time. And I am still not over her taking the first step. I wanted to kiss her for months but I was waiting for her to feel ready because if it was for me, it would have happened a long time ago.

And when she kissed me, on the day of the attack, she caught me off guard. I was surrounded by so many feelings and when she did it, I didn't hesitate one moment to share it with her and let myself go.

From that moment everything stepped through a different door, where my feelings were and are even more amplified and I wish I could kiss her every day, every minute.

Once she rears back, I hear her sighing deeply. «Text me if you need to, okay?»

I nod and keep my eyes on her until she disappears inside the building where Daniele's office is. Then I turn back on the car's engine and drive away to reach my father's house.

When I am in, I don't bother asking where he is, knowing he is right in his office as always. I pick up my phone and turn on the bug as I reach his door. I take a deep breath and march in without knocking. I find my father on the phone, facing the big window that overviews the big square in front of his house. He doesn't hear me at first but when I close the door behind me, he turns his body to flash me a blank gaze. He is not surprised to see me here and I wonder if my actions are just making things worse.

«I have to call you back,» he warns the person he is talking to. «My son is here.»

I keep my eyes pointed at him while I walk with my chin up, reaching the chair in front of the desk and sitting with no hesitation, making myself comfortable.

I look at him while he hands up the call and then sits on the big chair on the other side of the desk. «Why here?»

«We need to talk,» I start. «I want you to tell me more about the attack.»

My father chuckles. «I already told you enough.»

«No,» I retort. «You told me nothing. You told me you are planning to end things with Nando but you didn't tell me how, where and when. And I want to know that.»

He tilts his head to one side, now he is not smiling anymore. «Where this temperament came from?»

«From being tired to being treated like a kid.» My posture is rigid and my eyes are burning. «I came here, wanting you to trust me and to pull me into your affair so I could see the real world I will be in one day you'll be away but how am I supposed to handle everything if you don't show me the real side?»

«You are a kid, figlio.»

«No. You pretend to say that because you want me to bend at you but I will not. Not anymore,» I point out by going forward to get closer to him. «I am going to replace you and if you don't show me the reality of this life, I am going to take my path and create my way.»

I purse my jaw, clenching my fists and bowing a brown as my gaze never leaves his. Daniele and Enede were right. The only person who was making me fold in front of my father was me. I don't fear him right now. If he stands up and reaches me to beat me, I won't take the hit. I will fight back because I am tired to be treated like shit. Between him and me there was and there will never be affection, which means I have to fight with my nails.