Always and Forever

Regret

Emmas POV

I can't believe I just kissed Regina Mills. By the looks of her reactions, I can only assume the feelings I'm having are not reciprocated. Now I've gone and ruined everything, while she was finally piecing her life back together. 

Ever since Robin died, I've been worried about Regina. She's all that's ever been on my mind. It took a long time to realize how much I cared about her. While I'm sad about Robin's passing, it had opened a new opportunity. The opportunity I've been waiting for. At least I thought there was one. Until now. 

I spent the next hour walking around in the dark trying to let go of the horrible feeling I have about ruining things with Regina. Somehow, I find myself outside of Hook's ship. I guess now is a good time as ever to start patching things up with Hook and distracting myself from my actions. Maybe this will help fix things. I can tell Regina I slipped up, the wine and the night cap we had were messing with my mind. 

"Hello, Love. You're quite a sight for sore eyes these days." He walks towards me and kisses my temple.

"Hi, Killian. I've missed you."

"As I, you. How are you doing, Love?"

"I'm good. I'm getting a bit tired. It's been a long day and I just wanted to see you for a few minutes before I head home."

"How about I walk you home, make sure you get there safely. Maybe tomorrow morning we can meet at Granny's for breakfast?"

"That sounds great, Killian. Thanks." I give him a kiss good night, and leave to go home. 

Regina's POV

My alarm clock goes off at 6am. I didn't sleep all night. I kept tossing and turning, thinking about Emma. Emma's lips on mine. Her sweet vanilla scent. The way she held me and put me at ease. How comfortably I fell asleep in her arms. That definitely was the best I've slept in a really long time. She's right. We do always save each other. Whether we are annoyed or furious, we always put each other first. I didn't realize I did it. I didn't realize how much I cared. Here and there Robin used to make a comment about it, but I didn't think much of it. She gave me my son, she gave me a second chance, and she is always by my side. I wish I reacted differently when she kissed me. Now, she's going to be scared. I just wasn't prepared. She confirmed my beliefs, and I still wasn't prepared. How stupid of me. 

I get up and get ready for the day, then I head to Henry's room to get him up. 

"Hey Sweety, wake up", I shake him lightly.

"I'm up, but a few more minutes, please."

"Want to go to Grannys' for breakfast?"

"Heck yeah!"

"Well, get up and get ready. I'll be waiting for you."

We walk into the diner, and my eye catches the couple sitting at the counter. Of course. She's with the Pirate. I went up to the counter choosing to ignore them and I place my order with Ruby. 

"Regina? Hi"

"Hello, Your Majesty."

"Hello, Ms. Swan. Captain."

"Always a pleasure your Majesty."

I walk away to go sit with Henry, but I can feel her eyes on me. After we finish our breakfast, Henry gives me a kiss and heads off to school. I leave money on the table to cover our bill and a tip for Ruby, then I gather my things to go to work. I can hear footsteps chasing after me while I speed walk down the street and I can hear her calling my name, but I refuse to slow down. She catches up, though. She grabs my arm to turns me around. 

"Regina, stop."

"What is it, Swan, I have to get to work."

"We need to talk."

"There's nothing to talk about."

"We need to talk about last night."

"Swan, I have important work to do."

"I'm sorry, I-"

"Great. You're forgiven. Can you let go of my arm now."

"Don't be like this, Gina."

"I'm not being anything, Ms. Swan. It looks like your boyfriend is waiting for you to tend to his needs. Please go, so I can get to work."

She looks hurt and walks away easily. 

I walk into the office and let my assistant know that I won't be taking any visitors today. It's hard to focus on the papers in front of me. I can't stop thinking about Swan. Why the hell did she have to do this to me. She doesn't have a right to look hurt. She kissed me, ran off before I could say anything, then has the nerve to be in public with that moron who never deserved her to begin with. She said she felt different about him, so how are they together now? I need to bury these thoughts or else it's just going to make me restless.