Author's note: Haaa-looo guys! How are you people? Oh wait, I know. You guys are freaking upset about the recent drama in the story. You people are terribly cute for sending messages in my inbox. Thank you!
"Fading in, fading out
On the edge of paradise"--Love me like you do, Ellie Goulding.
Although it seemed to break from the inside I decided to go. I couldn't be a burden on him.
I had caused enough trouble to him.
I had hurt him enough.
Not anymore.
Not anymore.
I went straight to my room. Packed my stuff up. As I was dragging my bag out, something warm wrapped up my leg. I looked down.
Zeus.
He wagged his tail and nosed his ball at me.
I sat down and brushed his fur. He stuck his tongue out and wagging his tail ran all around me.
Clearly he was making this all the more difficult for me.
Maybe I was never meant to be in this family.
Maybe this wasn't supposed to work out.
Maybe this was a dream.
All these thoughts came running to my mind. I gulped the lump forming in my throat. Yet it still persisted...
I took up the ball in my hand and immediately found Zeus jumping to reach for it.
I threw the ball outside the window in the lawn. He ran towards the corridor and headed for the ball.
I smiled.
This was my chance to go out of this house.
I turned around and found Dexter standing at the door with his hands in his pockets. He looked straight into my eyes.
I couldn't look back to him. I felt guilty.
He was probably thinking that I had been sleeping with Tristan. And he didn't let me explain myself. So no option left.
I dragged my bag with me out of the room with me.
"So this is so easy for you huh?"
I looked at him this time. What did he mean my that? Wasn't he the one who wanted to be alone?
Leaving him was easy?
So this is how much you've known me?
His chin wobbled a bit but he gulped down and said, "What are you looking at me like that for? What you've done has clearly meant that nothing existed between us.."
Nothing?
I was so amazed that he could say it so easily.
Like nothing.
All feelings, all memories, all words, all the togetherness washed away with a word.
I took his arm and dragged him to the kitchen. I had to show him the nothing I had stored.
His eyes widened to see a table well set with scrambled eggs and bacon. The breads at the centre in a basket. Even the flowers that I had bought for him on his side of the table.
I went to the table and picked a napkin and wrote down
So this is what you call nothing.. Dex you need to trust people. Trust people who would stand by you no matter what. When you don't, you end up losing everything. And that's when you really have nothing.
I kept the napkin on his chair and walked out of his place.
One glimpse.
One last time.
My mind constantly argued.
I warned myself. I can't be weak now.
If love was supposed to be good then why did he fail to understand me?
He was the one who always understood me no matter what. Then why not this time?
Why did he not realise I needed him as much he needed me?
I did not a have single answer with me.
But if this is what you want Dexter so be it. I can't live with a guy who thinks I'm a person who is two timing him. I'm no cheater, and if he can't trust me on that then I can't explain myself to him for that.
If Tristan didn't bring up this topic maybe someday I would have. Would he have treated me the same way then?
He has this thing fixed in his mind that I cheated on him. And he isn't ready to change it, so how can I rectify it when I don't get a chance?
Yes, I can't.
I went outside the house and heard Dexter slamming the door behind me.
I gulped.
So he doesn't want me around him.
Fine.
I walked out of his place only to find Tristan sitting on the opposite side of the road. He stood up and walked up to me.
"I want you to know what happened inside wasn't intentional. Trust me Blossom, I had no idea he would be there."
I knew it wasn't his fault. There was nothing wrong in professing that you love someone.. And deep in you guys know that.
Thanks to him I got to see the real side of Dexter.
I nodded.
"Are you okay?"
I nodded.
Do I look like I have an option?
"I hate to bring up this topic but you know Musicana audition is in a week. You have to practice.."
I nodded.
I can't sit crying about him. I have a lot of things in my life that I need to take care of. Musicana, college and life.
Not that everyone has a love story right?
* * *
I tried playing remembrance on my piano. Maybe that'd clear up my mind. But I still couldn't concentrate. I kept playing.
Why did you break my heart Blossom?
I'm done with your lies..
So this is so easy for you huh?
Nothing existed between us.
His voice was ringing in my ears. Tears rolled down my cheeks and i just couldn't take it anymore.. I slammed the piano and got up and immediately my face hit a chest.
This time I knew it was Tristan.
But I hugged him anyhow.
If Dex doesn't trust me and thinks I'm a slut then why should I care?
He didn't hug me back though. His hands were hanging unless I held them behind my back.
I need to feel better.
I need him.
I cried my heart out hugging him and digging my face in his jacket.
But strangely I didn't feel better. It seemed so hollow. So unreal.
With Dex I never felt uncomfortable. It was as if when we hugged we felt like one person. His hands did wonders stroking my back. And it felt as if every time I was sad he used to mend every broken piece.
But with Tristan it was just a hug.
"You really love him right?"
I pushed myself back and looked up to him.
"You couldn't play remembrance! Not for once. And you are one who I think can play this tune even in your sleep. He has really gotten over your mind and heart."
I looked down.
I realised my choice had always been Dexter.
And Tristan realized it as well.
"That little piece of shit."
I choked.
That actually made me laugh.
Love
Blossom:)
Author's note: Ahhha happy now? Yes we all missed Dex but Tris was a sweetheart in this chapter. What do ya think? I need comments on this surprise chapter.. Maybe tons of them. I need some refreshments from studies. Gosh. See ya guys:)
*dives back into the ocean of studies*
